Back to Bed Sleepyhead 3Z

My head aches..  My dad will be home for lunch, gotta wake up in the afternoon though, have to see to my journals.  That's all, though.  Have to get a book tomorrow, leave a note for $20.

Oh, and my panties were all wet, thought I had a load.

Problem

Hey **** that person.

My dad made it sound like he said "no more weekends."  I wanted to do something v******.  He did some other things, too.  I had my earplugs on.  He was making weird things.  I have to do something and let it out, I just know.  I tried to settle down and remembered this threat.  He's just a nigger.  :|  Ellen DeGeneres is so annoying and stupid.  She is hurting me for no reason.  ANSWER ME THAT YOU STUPID NIGGER.

Now, what?

More studying????

Er, I need|want|desire to clean my room..also I guess that I should eat a salad.  I wonder what else I should eat.  My dad|mom could bring me Panera Bread, tomorrow..why am I so fat?  I just had a sammich at the gas station.  It was such a cold, crisp night.  I wanted to come in and work out some more to drain my stomach..  8p  My m*********** is feeling kinda warm and moist, like ointment, kinda at a chill factor, like not substantial, like sorta balls of fat, I guess.  I always have a problem with urinating, like the feeling comes and people look at me now.  Eating more prevents it, though.  :|  Why do I need like a lot of salad?  I just started weight training, just doing it 1 semester..  I don't feel like eating out so much so soon, though, just need something on campus..

Problem

My dad just got up.  I was just getting my toilet paper.  He won't stop bothering me.  He doesn't talk to me, you worthless, Goddamn niggers.

The People from up North at the Hotel

I bet Ellen DeGeneres, sad as she may be, thought she had to make me feel bad about having Pennsylvanian blood and heritage because of my dad taking over my mom..  I was at the hotel, and the connection was very dead.  It seemed like it was in part from going to Valencia.  Ugh, I have to get up and go to the bathroom again but don't feel like it, feel some tight spots, but that's not why.  So..  I just feel sorta exposed like my dad, like there was some sorta worry that I was like him, like how he's not a party animal but he's not a nerd, I mean, come on, maybe a bit worn, but that doesn't have to affect me you niggers.  ,}:[  Go to hell and *** and wallow in torture.

I told

My dad I told the teacher to hug me.

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How I'm Doing

I was out in my living room getting veggies. I was reacting to my mom hurting me 2 days before. I wasn't happy, but I came back out this morning, and I got all these annoying signs. My dad is a flippant retard, schizophrenic. So, I was in my kitchen and realized I was being told insults but not bad stuff because I had a stress reaction to the reputation of the mom of Ellen DeGeneres, was violently thinking about niggerish reactions of my parents, also thought how it wasn' t really worth it. Just don't want to really think about shit. I don't really think that but don't really like thinking about her mom unless it's for me.

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Magical French

Why does Ginny give and take unrelated things?  I always explain them.

Also, why are people like honing in on me and telling me I'm crap but not going out and admitting that it's the age of my dad and that I'm not accomplished but talented?  Do you know any attractive, strong men?  I know my dad isn't sexy.

My Idea

Ginny made some wrong decisions, and she's changing them.  However, she's scared of my dad, who is scared of the world, so it's like fucked up.  I mean, why would she say that I'm like worse than someone from Fort Lauderdale?