Salad..

I should have had a salad.  I feel heavy like an eraser.  So, at school, I got this huge salad with extra oil and these little sprouts.

Winded

Good.  Eating.  Making another Buffalo chicken sub with blue cheese.  Having Chef Boyardee canned macaroni and cheese leftovers at the mo, maybe some .. what's it? liverwurst.

Like Beth

from Little Women..

I feel tired, have things I want to do, want to lie down.  Had maybe liverwurst, frozen pizza, and a chocolate chip cookie-

Argh!

What should I do now?

I had a burger on thin rye, dog on wheat, Heinz ketchup, asparagus's cooked. 3I in water, chocolate chip and oatmeal cookie.

I am going somewhere tomorrow at 10:45 A.M., will be out for nearly ½ day.  I should really go to bed but will stay up and do things, hopefully go to bed, assume the food will make me tired, was gonna go for a jog but think I need to look for dresses.  }:]

Supper 3)

I left my veggies cooking. 3I and now I have to cook a burger and dog

Time for Cake '8)

+ the ice cream  3I.

Breakfast

Liverwurst
Leftover Pizza from a Frozen Pack of 4, Pepperoni, want the healthy kind, have to ask my dad, again, for the kind in the orange box

Gotta go to the bathroom and what change my clothes?  My brother isn't here.  Wonder if I'll clean tonight.

So

I woke up and ate ... liverwurst and a bloody hamburger on thin rye bun with Heinz ketchup.  Water.  My vitamins forgot the weight loss draining pill.

Dreams

I had a dream I killed Ginny Kopf.  In the end, I heard a few low drums of no consequence really, just th..anyway and then she exploded into lots of little glittery dust, as though she committed suicide.  '=s  The funny thing is I don't remember what I was doing 1st, but I know I was flying around a big place with lots of sorta plant-like buildings, kinda bleak.  I felt there was some big spirit flying me around, though, so I guess I was not the 1 flying?  I liked feeling that I was being held on my crotch, but I got some ideas I tried to process.  I realized that you can find anyone online at school in their city.  I decided, though, that I wanted to do something about safety but always realize that death is just around the corner.  Other interesting things, I felt like my feet were like pushing pedals like of that famous organ song.  I also felt my body nearer to the end before that as the result of being like a jelly worm, you know gel..  Those gummies.  ;D  From doing ballet, like it wasn't a good idea but hwen you do it it is.  I wish I remembered my other dreams, but I was more conscious with this 1, like before.  I think when I fell asleep this time, I felt dead from something, like the medicine as the end.  It's like because I wasn't famous with a lot of money from wishing to be an actor while I was on MySpace.  So, anyway, I was flying around a long time, felt touched, felt strong, the stronger overall feeling or whatever was the situation.  Oh well, wish I could remember more.  It was sorrowful and somber.  It was like it was a scary, black, from the past like my past life or dead, like a Ghost of Christmas, sorta going with me on a journey I was taking or happened to take because of her.  I still feel a big force around my crotch, and it feels like huge, puffy, not too old arms.  I woke up, and my blessed fingers were like big puffs.  I guess I did it to myself, as usual.  It's always interesting, but it won't last.  I used to feel I wish it would last.  :|

So, if you want to know what I did in bed, I could feel in Cleveland, my blankets feeling celestial like they put kinda a lot of sorta involuntary|voluntary, you know random.., pressure on me, like a spirit, that it was a person.  My bed also pulsed in a very surreal way.  I used to imagine the life in my eyes suddenly like crossing mainly.. and myself fucking the tubes!  D;  I tried it as much I could, like I would not stot, like I had to do it, like there was no point in thinking of other things in bed, myself.  I can't seem to do that, now, here.  I just was distracted, in the end..  I used to go around to RDV and sit around, a magical place, while my mom was busy.  I'd watch the people and feel I was in a magical world, really, but for some reason it had to dye away.

Disturbed

I feel Ginny is ticked off and I can't sleep because of eating cold cuts, like it's allergic in Pennsylvania.  She's not even cool in Pennsylvania so she needs to not do that..  :|

Up-

So, I got up and redid my nails, cooking another burger and dog.  Have my mac and cheese out.. maybe some liverwurst?  Cake?  That'll put me to bed, then it's up at 3:30 A.M.  Should I make that 3:45 A.M.?

nite

I'm hungry, probably will get up and grab some pizza after I rest more.  xp

Also

I ran on the track and had a cheap but actually large salad for lunch, had frozen pizza at home and a bunch of thicker, cooked greens.. from a plastic box. 3I

Eating Tai

Green Curry + White Rice

I walked into a bar...

It had nice, big couches.

I asked to see the menu.

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After the Movie

Yogurt for $7+, movie stub, asked to have it back, 3D 8), only owed $5.

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I Decided

I needed more food. Hm. Fasting ain't bad.

The movie will relax me. I slept 12+ hours I think the past 3 nights.

I just seem bored. My body seems dead.

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Showered

Had Cheese and PB crackers this morning, so goddamn gaunt hungry

Having lemon ice.

Laundry

So, while my parents were at the grocery store and getting my little pizza, I put away laundry and ironed 2 loads.  I washed another load after they got back.  Now, I have to fold a heavy, heavy load and dry another and wash some more things.  I just don't really feel like it.  I have to rehearse on camera.  I'm a little weak, should think of going for a jog with weights, not sure how far I'll make it.

Dessert

Like almost 10 Caramel Delights, Girl Scout Cookies, used to be called Samoas.