I realzied why I was mad

She is being rebellious about social networking online.  Also, she is doing it just to me.  That is suggestive considering what I'm supposed to feel, if you know what I'm talking about..  It's just 1 more piece of bullcrap for me to have to think about.  I kinda don't want to ask her to add me on a new Facebook.. hey I did get a new Facebook.  She said she would.  She was supposed to say why she wouldn't.  She seems gay like Órla Karron Fallon.  I just get a definiitive, stuck up message from her.  Everyone else can tell she's crass.  I am so sick of this bullshit of people telling me I'm gay to want organized attention, that's why, but I'm also mad at the fact all these people in the community turn on me.  My old choir director and organ teacher has nothing to live for.  She's a * * *.  She teaches gay kids.

So

Does Ginny think I am gay?  Who's gonna talk to me?  I don't demand it, but I mean I just wanna talk about it.  I mean, there are only so many of certain figures in Orlando, I assume.  I am not sure where to go, but I did want to live at home for now.  I mean, if there was a non-gay reason or something.

Doesn't Like

So, Ellen DeGeneres doesn't like New Orleans and therefore I don't care about her having *** with her mother..

Why So Gay?

Why are you Floridians so not wanting anyone to have fun?  Oh, you are concerned about the ***********, though..  Still, it's not a good practice, not having fun just to say you're a goody-good because I'm not that.

Problems

So, these gay farts born in the mid 40s think that they said like okay it's your choice to be quality old-fashioned European.  Now, like, they just flubbed up.  Wow, what a big deal over nothing.  Talk about power at the wheel.

I got another idea that Ginny is riding along the idea I'm like my little brother.  That's totally Hellenistic.  Let's make my dad his dead brothers.  Come on, you nigger.  You dumb fuck.

What else?  I got some violent thoughts @ Lily Rose.  I got the idea she's communicated with people who know me.. and put that picture up to say that I was old like my dad and my relations go in that way to someone who is racist against me.  They worsened as my mom like chimed in, supposedly under influence of my dad.  She would get mad at these thoughts, but I mean she just gets mad if she sees me thinking mad things about her because I can't help it.  I don't know what she does when I thought of things like that.  I'm grown up, now, so it doesn't matter.  She might see there is a reason and I don't mean it and it might be other people's faults.  I didn't want to.  I finally felt theraputic and calmed down, but then my mom made me mad again by thinking it was a joke like Ellen.

Hey, why is Ginny so flippant and intent on making other successful people feel like crap?  That's no one's fault Ginny.  I don't feel sorry for the likes of you in Florida..  What the fuck is your problem?  I wonder if she is on Facebook and blocked me.  She doesn't have many new friends.  I could ask her after class.. you know, she rushes after class, but I hope it's not because of Facebook.  She can teach me once a week.  Why does she bother talking to anyone, that goddamn nigger.  Why don't we just **** her?

What's this sentiment I sound like my little brother when talking about shit like Lily Rose and "Órla" "Karron" "Fallon."  Also, stop saying I offended you by not being as ***y as my mom because her race isn't white.  What's this shit with my dad now?  I thought that was settled, you goddamn nigger.

Problem

Can you just leave me alone, you niggers?

I got a bad message, and my mom chimed in again something that annoyed me, like she's younger, why?  I never wanted to be older, in that way..  Look, stop being a bastard on the net- and being so gay!  If you don't know, people are different online.  It's some suggestion they let out.  In real life, it's different.  You go online and expect to find that you're good and that others are enwrapped in some other culture.

What about my future kids?  Someone may want to hurt them.  I don't want to deal with that fantasy.

Why are people like Tim Burton starting ooh look how much work we went into to give you this message, this nasty message, that you can't have this you can't have that, your dad is old.  He was only 35 when I was born.

Problem

You gay niggers, I don't need to talk to my parents and my dad.

Problem

Stop you gay niggers from the South and North because you're bad and shit and nothing criticizing everything because you're not shit stop telling me what to do you goddamn niggers I'm gonna **** you.

Problems

So, my parents want to do something again just because I got mad online and they're not even motherfuckin' lookin'.  I got reminded when someone kept my driver's license card that other dads are different and something about my dad is miscalculated.  Like, other dads serve their daughters in their tempers.  My dad just gets racist and tries to stupidly rub in how our family isn't like others, but I've been in the wor'd.  3|  )))  I don't care about that nigger gay Ellen who needs things to feel so comforted like a fooze (gauze) to her and acts like I need to be punished.  Stop it you gay nigger.  Someone stop her.  Stop talking to my parents like that?  Wow, I'd love to be considered like happy if Ellen would meet my parents.  Stop being so gay you nigger.  You're the gay nigger.