Saturday, March 2, 2013

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To: Renée Fleming

Nice to see all the posts here. I have been a fan of her I guess for a long time. My dad introduced me to her when I was a music major and got in voice. I had to leave after about a year. Well, I can sing. Anyway, I like to sing and move, at the same time.. }:] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAhVu9ImBWw&feature=share&list=PLaGbICdZ92sbD8UoEPjU9UcznBDNT6rYE Ms Fleming should get a personal site where she controls like a place for people to submit their singing if they so chose and she can chose to comment. }:] I think I had a more, you know, "melodious" voice.. when I was a bit younger. :| Why do people just want you to like submit the strenght of your voice?? :/ I just never got around to recording it so much. When I sang more softly and sweetly and very controlled compared to most everyone.., I remember recording it, but Heaven knows where the recordings went.. We lost all the recordings of me when I was younger and most of the good pictures I had.. The benefit of singing loudly as a child when I was with my little brother more I guess, probably gave me the strengt to carry on. I was a very symmetrical type person, wanted a figure but was not treated as a European. You know dancers don't have good voices. The thing is I did gymnastics and not so much dance 1st when I was younger only once or twice a week. I wanted to go every day but sing, too.  I wish I took voice from the Russian teacher who taught me piano, but I was too shy and then didn't have time to practice piano. I was good at piano, and it stimulated me more about music. You can hear it in the orchestra, even, and it really taught me about counterpoint and harmony|chords, more exercises in rhythm. Going to school to learn to be a holistic person in Gifted and some AP classes, I would fit in exercises of staccato... I know my music teacher's daughter did gymnastics. Her voice sounded like speaking or shouting as she got older, like she was too shy to sound sweet, like she had no imagination, maybe because she kept going to her mom for all the attention.. I was just sitting there a long time. So, yes, about kids who sing. My mom is very artistic, but as for singing I mean she has a pretty European accent? She majored in ESL, which is English as a Second Language. Er, my dad was a rhythm guitarist, so. :| He also enjoyed being a loved photographer of models when they had more professional, nice things available. I'm sure he was top notch, had 2 other jobs, made it through college, though, and now makes a lot of money.. His parents both loved to sing, but he just sang with his guitar alone sometimes, never cared to sing loudly like his parents. My parents only talk loudly when they're mad or if they think that something is funny.. So, I don't know why you don't listen to me if I'm interested in the same things you are and instead like saddle onto being interested in my parents, like I came with no kid. Oh, and my mom's mom wanted her to be a singer, but her sister sang just a little as a toddler-kid... and then she is a piano teacher now and so knows all about music, yes.. No, I don't mean she is a singer! I just touched base.. 8| So, anyway, I seem to have a lot of more attractive singing skills, like I'm a singing cartoon because I was hurt. I was able to catch on but didn't record much. My life became an experiment and I lost my singing skills but got more sleep but kinda burned out, I guess, wish I was somehow convinced I could take a break from college- :| So, don't come to like keep at me moralistically on my appreciation of the joy of singing, maybe enjoy me for who I am and not for like wanting something I didn't admit. Not many singers like me, not many would be like as good as me and more confident, like most of the boys are?? You just kinda watch, think maybe there's no hope, and that there's just a lot to improve, so just leave and have nothing to add but then realize I'm more talented than most people. You want to know my story, again?? Gymnastics gave me a good stomach as a kid, and then I quit... I was a very disciplined person but not withheld. I was a tomboy after my brother was born.. I used to talk a lot, so that would be a good thing. My parents often preached and croaked until a certain point in time that you are not supposed to dribble to babies, in fact most people did that lazily. My brother, however, studdered, and I think it ruined me.. I think I was told that I had nothing to say too much. It's like they expected us to take singing. So, then I told my mom I want to sing somehow.. I was 7. I told my parents, "I like to sing," when I was 5 and sang a cute school song for them. My dad was like, okay. He kinda looked at me mockingly, no one else does that like that, like when they chose to get close. So, my mom got me in choir. I do not know why she did not tell me about private voice. I think it was a secret, yes, in the world. I just don't want you to think anything bad because lots of kids's moms won't do that, maybe because like they do ballet or maybe they don't have the means. I wouldn't do that.. I still am not sure why. Maybe, I had problems. My parents used to want me to do ballet, but I finally did it. I just didn't want to be fat and sunken in. It definitely made me who I am today. I know my skin got whiter, but I don't know why. So, what's wrong with gymnastics if you do other physical things? I didn't actually do it when I was older.. and my voice got pretty and feminine because of it, maybe had enough. I know I did well in P.E. I mean, I was fit since I was toddler, like my whole life. I wasn't malnutritioned and didn't pig out on like candy and stuff. Maybe, I need to get in shape? I'm a human, though, and I like to eat tasty food, but I don't pig out on junk and soda, at all. I don't eat Italian shit. So, after being so perfectly fit from the gymnastics and being successful in what ballet I did, we listened to Enya and stuff and my parents got me classical music. I was known to be gifted playing by ear on the piano, starting at 9½, like lots of people who do well at like 12 are thought to be good, for example, and I was a good student, so, no one dare disapprove of me in the end, morally. :| "It's never to late to play the piano," everyone "said." So, I had fun with like Enya and stuff, like that, church music, didn't really play Enya, but I seemed to be like that. Luckily we had another Irish CD like that kinda, more folksy, and of course some other influences, of course.. I just won't accept people not accepting me. I am not a bad, dumb person. So, we moved, and then I started getting into musicals and was in a more casual choir, but it was righteous and sorta old.. I had some other experiences, I guess, and I got in college and then I had a year of voice where really they didn't seem to have any sorta talent to offer, you know? Singers can get fat, though, and lose their talent for not using it. Singers who like get in shape as singers, you might say, don't have powerful voices.  I count all my experience in music, theater with musical theater. I also had a great interest in pop music around the time of the Titanic. Why not help me? Is it just too late? No one really seems to appreciate me academically, the failures that exist today. I guess they don't stop and think about what's probably wrong with their own singing. I mean, you can't say you're better or everyone keep saying they're not good enough to make me feel good in any sorta meaningful way. They think that the education system was just like sorta bait or katnip you might call it. You know, I studied in Washington, a graduate course, my 1st summer of college. It's definitely a hidden desire once you dispose of dealing with me. :|

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