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Other people quitting, the people themselves who quit who think it's funny maybe it's MY fault everyone in the world hasn't continued singing since young.  There was this singer from this tan Russian lady who started a year later than I did.  Her voice is kinda warbly, like saliva.  It became more projecting.  She wasn't supposed to have a loud voice, like Céline Dion never talking, who can't speak French.  So, what am I supposed to say?  This girl quit voice and just stayed as a theater major.  I mean, it's not entertaining.  She thinks that being attractive is a sin.  That means I can sing from choir.  +|  I mean, what are you looking for?  I found out about voice lessons after I moved from a year in choir, -from- choir.  The choir was good, so I stayed and just sorta explored myself and became very European, as well.  I moved andd was like I wanna teacher who teaches both voice and piano, but I didn't feel like singing in front of her.  I mean, she was good but not because she was Russian?  I mean, I'm a pianist, but she was a serious pianist.  She'd come back from community college, all sorta happy and European and was all strict with me..  It wasn't fun, she wanted it hard..  I didn't..  I remembered her sliding the notes, though, years later.  It's funny the travling organists in the choir at church, which who knows, I mean it was the school church.., might have been better than the hired 1s, the 1st who was fired..  Everyone there loved me, thought I took on, had the angelic type of voice and then I guess digressed after a solo experience and went to college and took lessons and didn't learn much.  :|  My teacher was from Tallahassee.  :|  So, why should I take lessons from someone who is racist who I don't like???  Then, we had another good choir director, who seemed to have a lot of knowledge of good singing but herself was no vocalist.  Her voice was very soft but projected more easily than mine from being a teacher..

Heil, Hitler!

The fact I never took voice ... I moved to another place.  Well, anyway.  I was learning music via piano, was lucky to learn music notes in music class before moving to a really good choir.. just there wasn't any individual singing involved.  So, then, I went to high school and found I had to audition for Talented Music but was in Art I, instead.  So, then, I was 15 and wanted to take voice and was already in ballet once a week.  Then, I got singing lessons from a really large lady in Talented Music until a Korean girl came back, but I mean it was an interesting experience.  So, then, I went to the mental hospital and became bloated there in a week, was 16 my 3rd year of high school..  It was because I had my 1st lecture heavy reading course, should have ignored school and paid attention to gifted arts?  The rest of the classes were always okay, but Calculus was a challenge, as I went to 3 high schools.  So, then, I spent most of my time it seemed accompanying on instruments and in choir, was in a new band at a Catholic school..even said dance team girls should have been on it, this 1 attractive 1 who went to England before.  She would announce every morning.

So, what is it?  I know already at least about Renée Fleming, whose parents had her right after graduating as singing majors.  She did opera in the cradle, while people came in and took lessons, maybe because their house wasn't been enough and there was no nanny while she got lessons.  Maybe, they had to feed her or something.  I mean, what, maybe it's "not true?"  I mean, I don't know if she had to sing as much as other people, but she sang "Climb Every Mountain" as a kid, maybe around age 10 or 11.  Or maybe like 8th grade.

Then, there's also Órla Karron Fallon.  She has been singing as long as she can remember and went through college taking harp lessons and is a Religion major.

Jackie Evancho, who is from Pittsburgh, like Ginny's dad, obviously had a vibrating voice at 7, appears to have taken lessons, maybe not as gifted as I was, not sure why, I mean I've heard gifted kids and stunning kids and seen kids who are more physical and could probably become good artists.

SO, WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?  I CAN SING.  I'M NOT A DORK.  I'M ATTRACTIVE.  I'M NOT AN OLD, GERMANY FOGY, AND I AM GERMAN.

Oops! I forgot I was racist.

What do you think of Ellen being afraid to be attractive, like doing something attractive, like letting people she clings to be attractive?  Get it on Ellen, oops I forgot I was racist.

Something Interesting to Note

So, people think that their happiness is based on my success.  Like, you could just say, it's only about child stars today.  Like the 1s in commercials, probably all with white hair???  White curly hair?  I saw the most attractive 1, today.  [|:]

Tai Chi

"The mist rises."


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Make sure to check out the girl in the Sears commercial.. link.

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I added a music video from my old piano teacher in the nation's oldest continuing city, Saint Augustine, Florida, under a major city in Northeastern Florida, from a Share on Facebook:

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I added a photo to my set.  :D

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Poofed Out

I'm poofed out?..

I just cleaned the bathroom for my brother.  Put in new toilet drops, haven't had them in awhile.

Hi Ginny

Well, I hope she has a long break off, like a year.  :|

In the summer, I just wanna go to Disney, guess it'll cost money, was otherwise wondering if I could stand on a boat in the water in the Midwest.

Also, I think kids here should go on break over the break, bring their homework.  They should go somewhere else, Europe, a nonwhite nation, or the Midwest, or maybe somewhere else.  I wonder if there are special camps in L.A...

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That Don't Impress-a Me Much. 3I

So, why are these younger kids trying to impress me with their style because I like to have ***?

Se - par - AAA - TION!

If in the end no matter what you do you hate someone for having a dad born from 1940-1956, why not just separate yourself from them?

Going fo' the Goa'l X|

Why can Late Boom be cool?  So, I like went with the right program people wanted, to take the heat and reach you goal.

So, they could agree with me and then go along with theoretically the rest of the dumb, older?, or messed up for some reason people in the world.

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I don't believe in the new move of saying I'm as good as my parents.  We grew up listening to our parents, and they may have messed up with you, but parents still like me even in their kids get like snotty all the time to me when they don't have to put up with me for too long.  I guess people just kinda get annoyed at me like trying to be how others were before, and they say my new ways are niggerish.  You know, black person in zebra clothes.

Y 0 Y

Why would you go along and rush kids in year like 2000 something early 2000s to all act so modern in that sorta juicy, sparkly, spiky way.. not in a cool way.  And like sorta knock all the older Generation Y kids out to never be that way?  Or should I say younger Generation X?  I am not sure, I think it's like a graduation, a collection of maybe people born before 1992.  So, then, you sit there are wonder how to change something.  Well, like, the problem would be for me I'm not all white and I have traits that are like not really European so I'm not like as straight.  I don't see why me having an older dad is so bad, I mean I can't hang out with other people with dads my age?

Ghosts in the Corridor..

I was in the hall, went to the bathroom sometimes every 20 minutes or 15 minutes.  I heard these haunting noises like human ghosts howling, so I was like I hope that's not where the sound of ghosts came and writing this just realized more tactually that that's "how" it actually happened, lazy people..  x(

How I'm Feeling

I'm actually feeling quite low.  I didn't jog yesterday..  Also, I didn't get enough sleep the night before.  I guess tonight I slept ...  dunno really maybe 10-11 hours.  Kinda stimulating myself the whole time.  Now, I'm just kinda hungry and tired..  xp  Wanna go shopping.

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More text box info..on the black crystals in my eyes..

So

I woke up and ate ... liverwurst and a bloody hamburger on thin rye bun with Heinz ketchup.  Water.  My vitamins forgot the weight loss draining pill.

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Not Happy

Hey stop looking at me like I have to be in the style of my dad's generation, you messed up dweebs.. and stop telling me I'm a dork!

So, he came home early.. Spring Break.

Wasn't really happy to see his sour attitude, and he acts like my mom is younger, like his younger sister, I should s*** him.

Staaa'rs

I starred the good videos to watch.

"Sta(a)(r)rs .. .. in their multitud.es ... scarce to be coun-teD"

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Dreams

I had a dream I killed Ginny Kopf.  In the end, I heard a few low drums of no consequence really, just th..anyway and then she exploded into lots of little glittery dust, as though she committed suicide.  '=s  The funny thing is I don't remember what I was doing 1st, but I know I was flying around a big place with lots of sorta plant-like buildings, kinda bleak.  I felt there was some big spirit flying me around, though, so I guess I was not the 1 flying?  I liked feeling that I was being held on my crotch, but I got some ideas I tried to process.  I realized that you can find anyone online at school in their city.  I decided, though, that I wanted to do something about safety but always realize that death is just around the corner.  Other interesting things, I felt like my feet were like pushing pedals like of that famous organ song.  I also felt my body nearer to the end before that as the result of being like a jelly worm, you know gel..  Those gummies.  ;D  From doing ballet, like it wasn't a good idea but hwen you do it it is.  I wish I remembered my other dreams, but I was more conscious with this 1, like before.  I think when I fell asleep this time, I felt dead from something, like the medicine as the end.  It's like because I wasn't famous with a lot of money from wishing to be an actor while I was on MySpace.  So, anyway, I was flying around a long time, felt touched, felt strong, the stronger overall feeling or whatever was the situation.  Oh well, wish I could remember more.  It was sorrowful and somber.  It was like it was a scary, black, from the past like my past life or dead, like a Ghost of Christmas, sorta going with me on a journey I was taking or happened to take because of her.  I still feel a big force around my crotch, and it feels like huge, puffy, not too old arms.  I woke up, and my blessed fingers were like big puffs.  I guess I did it to myself, as usual.  It's always interesting, but it won't last.  I used to feel I wish it would last.  :|

So, if you want to know what I did in bed, I could feel in Cleveland, my blankets feeling celestial like they put kinda a lot of sorta involuntary|voluntary, you know random.., pressure on me, like a spirit, that it was a person.  My bed also pulsed in a very surreal way.  I used to imagine the life in my eyes suddenly like crossing mainly.. and myself fucking the tubes!  D;  I tried it as much I could, like I would not stot, like I had to do it, like there was no point in thinking of other things in bed, myself.  I can't seem to do that, now, here.  I just was distracted, in the end..  I used to go around to RDV and sit around, a magical place, while my mom was busy.  I'd watch the people and feel I was in a magical world, really, but for some reason it had to dye away.