So

Is the theater class for the teacher to have fun?

..Wut?

So, you do listen to the sarcastic bullshit of trashy young tweens.

Sorry for People in High Places

Why should I feel sorry for people in high places?

Stimulated Myself..

I stimulated my ovary by pressing against the bed. ):)

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wut

So, Ellen, why did you fart that my Mom deserves more Southern heritage? Aren't you worth anything? You are famous - O MY GOD-

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Wut

Why does Ginny think she is right to get shit out that I am shit? I have worked long and hard.

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Mobile

Problem

So, why is it a sacrifice to talk to me?

I kicked the chairs of boys in class..  I've hurt people..

I just got a sarcastic message from my mom that I'm from Pennsylvania in a weird way.  Look, I don't have a problem learning in my life.  Stop telling me I can't be sarcastic.  You're uncool, stupid, a turd.  :(  Get over it, your stupid language barrier, you nigger.  Go to hell.

Can you GODDAMN stop telling me every feeling is true?  Just flip your lid.  Look I said stop.  What is this shit?  Why am I getting these messages?  Everyone does it.  I feel certain feelings, and I try not to get upset but find that no one really is impressed with me..

Isn't it really funny

how people in California and the New Orleans area aren't very suave?

,:[

So, you see kids in the 1980s were treated like shit, you see the little kids with the button noses in Ginny's picture.  Light hair.  They look like stupid dolls.  Kids today are too much in fast forward, based on knocking out the future of kids before.

Picture

Ginny is the skinny brunette on the left.  Hmph, her hair is gold brown..  I need to start using Radiant Red, again??  Her hair seems lighter, now..  No, wait, I'm using the Sheer Blonde for dyed blondes and there's red in the bottle, so..  Er..  Now, what?  I'm using Frizz Ease.  :|

Disturbed

I feel Ginny is ticked off and I can't sleep because of eating cold cuts, like it's allergic in Pennsylvania.  She's not even cool in Pennsylvania so she needs to not do that..  :|

So

Why are you telling me I have to hold off being from Pennsylvania in the way I have Pennsylvania blood when I am not at all from there, my dad is.  What the fuck is your goddamn problem!  You gotta issue?  Look, got anything to say??  :|

Wrrrong!

You call people niggers who just flip you off as wrong racially.

OK, OK

So, Ellen is a maniac about going to your grandparents for heritage, what a bitch.  :/

Something Funny @

Charlotte Church may have like dark eyebrows but is not really serious like someone born in the 1950s and early 1960s.  Etc.

Um

Why do you think I am acquired in Florida but not the New Orleans area??  Because I'm not from the city??  Wow, it was already too late when we got there.  Yea, I complained a lot, but they didn't build the health club that we were moving by, neither.  I didn't want to do a sport.  I didn't want to do yoga, wasn't particularly prepared for a 16-year-old's workout.  I wanted to do softball, but there was no softball anywhere...  I wanted to do more ballet, but I found this nice little studio, should have looked somewhere else.  It just seemed really interesting, so I mean I just stayed since I already went there.  I mean, why would a modern dance studio have company and ballet new just once a week?  I mean, they could offer it.  Why would I even bother caring about them?  No, I don't want to look too gaunt but kinda was going after that look.  I guess I finally broke through that idea and thought of something.  I mean, why would I be a puffy ballerina?  What can I go for?  I think doing cross country ... hm ... I met this boy from New Orleans who left and changed over the summer, cut my hair from being longer-looking.  I mean, I gotten fatter not being able to do ballet and feel I would have been puffed up, possibly.  I mean, who knows, maybe I would quit.  Lots of girls do so they can live a normal life.  I wanted to walk around, but I could only do it with a friend over, and hardly anyone would talk to me.  They, even the nicest girl, would just look at me like shit with a shit face.  Please don't think I mean anything, I just mean that in a not mean way.  I don't know why all Louisianians are so gay..  Look, I'm mad again.  I just liked high school, but that's when it was all about the boy from New Orleans.  I attended this private school which was gay but kinda interesting.  Maybe better than the Mandeville styled school.  They wasted class time, but I could get in classes early.  I always thought I spent too much time on homework, but there was an omen about the public junior high, not sure if people there succeeded.  Hm, not even sure who the dance team members were..  At least, they were kinda ***y and not just like trashy and cliquish and schizophrenic, you know, schizophrenic!!

What do you think??

What do you think about in the deep, deep lows to find that some obscure place like Louisiana or New Orleans exists and that no one cares about what you think about that stuff in life??

Ow

My head hurts from being mad and m***********.  I am glad for Spring Break but not really but it will give me a chance to catch up on sleep and have a better rest of the semester.  I have a workbook assignment, 3 things or small things, in Weight Training I.  In Theater, we'll read a children's book, the voice class, but we can't start early.  I asked, after class..  I mean, I tried to sleep, but I ate and then watched some videos and packed, was gonna wake up at 3, know sometimes I don't sleep.  I mean, I'll be fine, but I'll be agitated trying to sleep at school, like before..  I have to do a character analysis and print out my journals.  I have to block something, too.  I guess I'll do it after weight training, but I really really want to jog but you know probably won't.  I'll get out of Weight Training at 10:15.  I have to eat lunch by noon and then my shower, which takes me until class starts.  So, I'll have 10:15-noon to do all my homework and purchase my book maybe before class I guess.  The bookstore opens at 8, so I'll go buy my book and jog and then do weight training.  Then, I guess I can do the character analysis in the library.  I did it on another paper but didn't copy it, so it'll be fun to do again.  If I finish early, I mean, I guess I won't.  :(  I'll have to jog over the holidays..  I might do the character analysis at school at like let's see 7?  Yea?  But might be sleeping?  We'll see.  So, I'm ready, ponytail, contact lenses, ready to pack the case, cell phone, bar of soap..cell phone case.  :|  Everything seems packed.  Lost my lunchbox but have my lunch packed.  I guess no one will play tennis, but I'll be out there to see.  Money packed...  :/  Guess I'll look for stuff for St. Patrick's day.  I mean I had so much ************ in my sleep in a way..so much stress, too, and like I just don't feel right not sure why I'm up.  Maybe, I should separate myself from the rest of the class.  :(  I mean, I was in the very back!  There was no room.  The whole class was like feeling for me I guess by the way the teacher talked, though I don't know if she really saw me!  :|

dun dun dun dun

dun wanna go ta bed

Ever imagine...

Ever think you're that black-eyed cross-eyed 1 high in the, er, celestrial stadiums just watching the sports game?

Videos

Starring videos I like of me.  Tell you when I'm done.

So

I don't wish to teach ballet @ 5 AM, so you can take a shower @ 6, maybe dry your hair and apply makeup by 7?  Maybe not, I like 2 hours, though..not sure why, but it's in the afternoon..  :|  Because people sleep 10-6 ideally.  Just pick business.  Construction sometimes?  Dunno.  That's 8 hours in the bed, maybe a quiet evening with a jog or stuff alternating, the gym, a swim.  So, I wish to teach Rainbow kids on Fridays, was thinking 4 PM because dunno something happens later.. ah yes the mall and the movies, even.  I mean, I guess it could be at 7-8, but the mall here closes at 9.  I mean, you can walk outside.  I'd been going to the mall on the weekends.  Aw, I guess I have nothing to teach.  What will I do next semester for exercise?  I like coming at 5 A.M., the transportation is better, have to wake up at 4 if I'm just going to exercise..

Up-

So, I got up and redid my nails, cooking another burger and dog.  Have my mac and cheese out.. maybe some liverwurst?  Cake?  That'll put me to bed, then it's up at 3:30 A.M.  Should I make that 3:45 A.M.?

So

Do you m*********?  I used to not, but I think from taking too much gymnastics I did.  I guess I didn't have any fun, and I was a good gymnast..  3I

Proud

I saw a taller old man proud about his Gen Z grandkids. 33

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Y

Why is it about Tim Burton and not Johnny Depp?

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In th Van

Didn't remember ear plugs.



Recorded visit. Seeing her in a week or 3.



Going home, to bed, waking up at 3...30. 6+ hours of sleep, like I wanted last night.



Trying to get a psychiatrist appointment ASAP, same 1. Trying medicine, also Chinese medicine. Was gonna go the 20th. Makes me tired and don't think I need it, anymore, that the other kids would..

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New Photo Set

New Set Photo

New Pictures of Me

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Did I tell you?

I got Frizz Ease products.  :|

Problem

I'm gonna * you you liars always doing perverted things.  YOU HEAR ME YOU STUPID NIGGERS?  YOU HEAR ME YOU STUPID NIGGERS!  Dx

Problem

You're a nigger.  Go sleep with your dad.  S***** the lunatic across the face.

Stop

Look just leave my dad out I'm gonna * you "Tim Burton."

ARGH STOP

My mom put a shirt behind my shirts of my dad, I don't want to touch him in a perverted way, that's not how I was brought up, GO. AWAY. YOU GODDAMN NIGGERS-  I think I should just * you.  You better stop because I know what you did.  ,:[  What do you think I am, stupid?

Dreams Dreams Dreams

Take Me Back | My Next Beer

So, I don't understand, but I had to dream that supposedly someone, using I guess since I only see Ginny Kopf, was grappling my crotch for a long time and when she touched me it stimulated my entire body and she gained a focus of my eyes and used cartoon images but in a friendly way that only feels good and summut contained.  This was pretty long, and I wasn't foresaken upon awakening.  I was in a big bedroom that looked like a dorm, darker.  Forget next dream, was good.  I forget some of the next, but I thought my dad really was there and put his hands on my shoulders and then my aunt.  I don't remember so much here.  I think I was being carried or something, not sure why, maybe because.  I like to think about people touching me.  :|  So, anyway, then, I was like at a thing with girls, reminds me of something before in my dream, like tennis and models.  I had already jogged a lap.  Then, we had to jog around a bathroom stall which circled I think 100 times, I'm like here?  The girls were tall with round heads, kinda like sticks, shiny slick hair, watching me getting close to the coach, just automatically hopping up to him in the middle of class standing on a bench in the stall area outside the bathroom.  Then, (heya car just passed,) I remember a very good feeling don't remember too much, guess I was meeting someone, probably reeking from the reminder of when I had this really big voice lab teacher, 1st was pretty fat, then seemed pretty strong and quite tall.  Anyway, so, I was thinking of Ginny, even had to think it was her so I wouldn't think I could like make up real people.  Oh, and I woke up really feeling like you know a hand print on my crotch several times, maybe because I felt like *********ing, you know?  Anyway, so this was interesting, now I forget, think I was being carried, but I was thinking of coming up to this "teacher," like in that darker room.  I found this person like I guess like put her arm around me, then both her arms right away and like my legs were up kinda to the side wrapped around said person.. but it was interesting because I wasn't supposed to move and she was just supposed to like carry me out to the parking lot because I was like her ba by.  So, something for you to think about.  Anyway, I woke up, and I guess I was a bit mad, as you can see, I mean I liked it, but I didn't feel like anyone thought the beer part was okay.  Oh, yes, and I woke up thinking there was this dangerous, low vibrating, I think in the 1st dream, yes, and I woke up and for some reason it was gone, didn't move, hardly breathed I bet.  It was pulsing, seemed loud enough at the source.  The exercise classes must have helped because they feel kinda quelled, like on a island of water, the sea with clouds floating around.

A Turn for the Worse

I can't believe the turn my life has taken since the existence of my cousin.

Y

OH MY MUTHERFUCKIN GOD TIM BURTON WHY YOU MAKE SUCH A BIG DEAL ABOUT HELENA BONHAM CARTER

Why So Gay?

Why are you Floridians so not wanting anyone to have fun?  Oh, you are concerned about the ***********, though..  Still, it's not a good practice, not having fun just to say you're a goody-good because I'm not that.

Awake

Don't really feel like sleeping.  I mean, I do, but I just woke up.  Not sure why.  Seems I only slept for like 6 solid hours.  Need to get back to bed and do my journals.  I need to do blocking, too!  :0  I can do that at the Therapist..

nite

I'm hungry, probably will get up and grab some pizza after I rest more.  xp

So

Ginny is nice and a suck up because she is short, but she is not a twit.

only time will tell ♬ only time

I added times to a tennis YouTube.  3|

PM

So, Ginny sent me a FB Message, I have to use her home e-mail..and not post on her Facebook, like, every few days..

So, isn't her Valencia classes just crap?  That's mostly what she teaches in public.  D;  The kids are all mean to me all the time, I don't need their motherfuckin goddamn stupid retarded idiot good-for-nuthin bullshit.

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I ran on the track and had a cheap but actually large salad for lunch, had frozen pizza at home and a bunch of thicker, cooked greens.. from a plastic box. 3I

Back to Bed Sleepyhead 3Z

My head aches..  My dad will be home for lunch, gotta wake up in the afternoon though, have to see to my journals.  That's all, though.  Have to get a book tomorrow, leave a note for $20.

Oh, and my panties were all wet, thought I had a load.

Upset After Class

I was like a victim trrembling @ class, like the fool I make of myself, the way I can't take it and the way no one in the world can care....

See, I kept stabbing my notebook when I was annoyed..  I did leave the room and stomp my feet and then come back in soon.  I came in and said are you gonna annoy me, like last class, and asked if someone said they were gonna kill me..  The teacher said no they didn't.  :|  I told my mom, too, but she didn't seem to care too much..  :S  I sorta felt washed ashore in death.  Like, I was murdered but left at peace..  :|  People are always at me and will never be direct with me because they think it's possible I actually want too much attention being mixed race.  I actually am feeling kinda subdued.  Maybe, it's from all the good things I did, and then I don't know why I was attacked but I'm so mad.  It seems people are really mad at me for any attention I get from Ginny, and I want to ****** them..  I just heard something..  Please, leave me alone, you dweebs..  :|  Also, I can tell in attitude my aunt is posing as a virtual ring leader rassling me for everything just because my life isn't perfect, like my dad does, and I want to * her.  ,:|  Everyone is threatening people they know not to hurt me.  ;|  Er.  Why can't peopel just be normal?  Hey, listen to me, stop with the bullcrap "online."  I'm the civilized 1.  It's okay if I live my life the way I do, I was treated unfairly, why must I base my life on comparing with how much I sacrificed of my, er, ... I dunno academic future?

***********

So, I woke up and decided to stimulate myself by direct action, but it wasn't really what I wanted..  :|

Dream

I had thee coole st most terrifying dream.

There were some scenes in the corrider where someone was like acting with music I think trying to slit someone before they slit someone else.  So, my old organ teacher|choir director went in a jail cell with someone else kinda, like a mental hospital, which is horrid.  So, I went in with someone else so we could maybe get in with her..  I know Ginny was involved.  So, it was mostly about that and something like a pop Disney performance scheulde.  For some reason, I felt a lot of *** or ************ or rather I dunno ***********.  It was pretty dynamnic, that dream, but it's hard to remember, I think I was against like some flowery sheets, just some flowery sheets, like in bunched up at the base, and like hugging it like it was Ginny or something and feeling like those art drawings like of cupid or the statues of the very human figures with drapes hanging off.  I was in the mental ward with people in the halls battling against knives slitting someone else's throat, like it's the good angel against the Master of the House, defending someone, like my old organ teacher or like I saw a big baby in an aisle, a bit sadistic in sentiment, like with some pastel but like an old or like modern French cartoon..  I saw the video of me acting and for some reason I was able to act like how I saw Country Bear Jamboree, but I can't see it no more, same with the old French cartoon..  So, I was lusting for "***" in a ward with people being murdered at bodily contact, instead slicing the other.

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Funny

So, why does it seem like people are surrounding me constantly telling me I'm presenting myself as nothing?  That was not the plan.  ☠  I realize you think mixed people from Louisiana are stuck up.

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My Problem

So, I found out I can't stand the suggestions in Orlando because it's Florida..

WAH help me Ginny

I just got really mad at signs in my kitchen..

Facebook Post

I just called to ask you when it was, guess I will have to call you tomorrow if I don't ask on Thursday while I'm waiting for my Therapist appointment.  I don't really know anyone in Orlando, so I don't know who to ask to come with me.  Lots of people I know have been interested in singing and things..  :(

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To: ginny.kopf

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I think the voice is a personality tool and today I croaked up an emotion. Most people have something like a slur. They think their voice is just a product of their health. They don't even think about how their nose affects their voice. They don't even use singing in their lives... They don't care about race and don't attune to the accents like New York state, Boston & NYC, South Carolina and Georgia, the New Orleans dialect, and then the country, sometimes thought to be "the west." Floridians and Californians are really annoying but open, but I can't do anything about it because I'm a Floridian and people aren't open to me since my mom they somehow know is tan I guess and my dad might have Native American indian and the seemingly common German Jewish, like a lot of people. They really won't help me if I'm Native American. I just realized that in the south, they are more comfortable, the Native Americans. So, yes, I do have and have been told by my peers all the time when I was cool that I have a pure Floridian accent or rather that I have no accent I'm from Florida my accent is no accent that is the way everyone should be!!! I heard in L.A. and I guess throughout California.. like San Fransisco and the area that they have the Valley Girls and I grew to like it when I was in the New Orleans region. I heard that was all there was and all there will ever be, that there will be no new generations. :| Yes.. They just have really ***y voices and aren't muddled up in northern culture, but I had this friend who I think has a dad or maybe also mom from Canada. xp So... :| They not only have the pure voice but are so ...ed up, you know? They won't even think straight. They're like a hiccup, a ditzy. They just want to know where your parents are from because people from up north want to .... me for being from Florida and then criticize me for having blood from Scranton, etc.. PA Dutch? Also somewhere in NY. Like, they want to hurt me for my culture but never my voice. See, my mom has a European accent. You know, Ginny, not everybody can sing. I had to learn. My parents love good music. I grew up close to my mom ***ually but didn't like feel that tingly feeling so much. With my dad, we had the proper English relationship, no ... with my dad. I don't know about my brother, he's not very European and mocks me under protection of my parents.. I al ways grew up being the most European and was whiter than everyone else I told the people in the racial crisis type forum, but I changed since then. 8| In Loo eez ee anna lazy louisiana, they thought I was a foreign exchange student because of my mom. I actually sang more alone, there, so my accent kinda was lost. Oh, I just called but see you must have already gone to bed after class, I would but decided to do more singing and am eating and had to get my stuff etc., loading some practice videos, too. In Orlando, I got a sorta s--- voice.. I picked up on the tacky things here, also had this ½ Spanish ballet teacher who was young who said things funny maybe like brruther. I also picked up on the really low things in the New Orleans area. I didn't really connect with the girl from San Fransisco's voice. :| Same with the girl from L.A. I just don't in that sorta bland, raspy way. I finally got rid of the accent of the girl from NYC I'm working with for a lot of the part.. So, I feed off of people from California. I see you feed off of people from certain places. I saw Pennsylvania, Wisconsin, and Washington (state,) 2 from Wisconsin. Ah I'm gonna go eat guess I'll catch you later.. :) I see we can't Share, anymore, is there a reason? I see that sometimes.

Hi, yes, I would like to come. I hope this is a big turnout. I guess I have to make sure I ask you where it is. If it's not in your home, I wonder if there will be a nice place to eat. :) My mom can't make it, and I'll probably just go without my dad. I see people I knew online in Northeastern Florida.. but they haven't spoken to me and are busy with their lives, would like to come some of them, though. Even my aunts are busy. 1 of them might not be. You'd know she's about your age.. but she doesn't e-mail me, now, I guess because I haven't e-mailed her lately.  I don't seem to know anyone in Orlando but know I've seen people thru my mom.

Honky

Why is Ginny racist? Just admit if everyone "is" racist. Why is the experiment I'm in so insulting? Ginny is a spoiled honky. Did you know at 1st, people were so overly servile and somewhat entertaining?

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Tell Me

Ginny, if yo goddam fukn wan me 1 leaf the class well then say so you muthafucjrn idiiit.

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Maybe, she's gay.

I know Ginny has thought of me, but is she sizing up my fat? Why does she act so sarcastic? Maybe, she's gay.

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Let me just say it.

I'm gonna * Ginny Kopf- she thought my hands should be bigger as in longer. She made them stubby. 3)

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Responsible

I'm pretty responsible.

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Stupid Tricks

I don't have to do stupid tricks and remain uptight.

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Lion @

He was just sorta lyin' aroun'.

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Is it so easy?

Ginny won't ruin every child's nose. Is it so easy?

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The Nu Mary Poppins

I'm the nu Mary Poppins, for Autistic kids.

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Rather Rude and Very Contageous

Why are people acting like they have all this white race stuff? Maybe because they are not Late Boom. However, it is very rude and rather contagious.

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An Accomplished Romantic

Why are people squeezing juice out of us? What if everyone is like Ginny? I am an accomplished romantic!!!

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Bad Connection

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" isn't working.

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More

He's a history major.

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Dwink

Vitamin water lemonade $2.34. That guy got so pudgy, raspy voice, reddish curly hair.

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What Do I Intend to Find, This Time

I found I had to quiet down and learn not to gurgle.

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A New Me

A gregarious girl pushing stuff walked past us, well deep voice.

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Ate

I ate to grow: 3(/) Buffalo wrap with BLU CHEEZ-



Apple rings



Also, you can't find me.



The curly light blonde Cali girl reassured me singing lessons were all @ reassurance, also only performs 2 times, Apr 1



I saw Chris Plummer (sound od Music,) Anne Hathaway, cute slender direcor of Life of Pi, Adele.

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What About

The Autistic kids born 1987?-1991?

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Grown-Ups

So, people born in 1961 grew up.

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YR

Why are boys born 1959-1960 so ***less?

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Other Guys

The guys in 1956 are pretty sexy, not sure @ the rest, maybe up to 1954.

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You wouldn't want to be

You wouldn't want to be Johnny Depp nor Tim Burton. Maybe a dude born in 1957. I do like Tim Burton. Johnny Depp is, strangely, like 1 of us.

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Logo

I should concoct the logo of a cat licking its head.. 8/



I should even ask how to learn to design a software.

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So! Do you wanna-

So, do you want to focus on white parents born in 1935 with Late Boom kids born 1957-1961?

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Teacha Teacha

Fridays 6-7 A.M. - meetings in library room for kids, tweens, young adults, delinquents, etc., with Autism - also welcome those with ADD, OCD, Bipolar, Schizophrenia - rainbow children



Want to teach ballet for gymnastically inclined, anyone, M-F, 5-6 A.M. - with performance - Valencia does a rehearsal for Dance major Friday mornings.



I have to be faculty to use Valencia like in mornings. I should use a dance studio.

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Square Nails

The popular girl I sat next to had square fingernails.

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Last Week

Last week, I sounded like I was reciting my acting and said did you notice like the subtleties, meaning the hint of what I was acting but like decided not to? I tried to make it haunted the "night" before.

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Breakfast

Liverwurst

Mac and Cheese

Some Yogurt

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AM SO HAT

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Last Night...

The tall, thin black guy showed me his private a few times and tried to get me in his apt., but I said I wasn't comfortable but let him hug me. Thin clothes.

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Last Night...

Last night, getting in bed late after a Twitter rampage, I was able to feel without imagining personification. I slept for @ 1r hours the past 2 nights. It just kept coming, like before but not like before.

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Woke Up

I kept waking up, didn't fall asleep for maybe 2 hours.

I tried to stimulate myself, but here's something vibrating in my throat.  Oh well, just being precautious.  Now, what?  Makeup?  :|

Y

Why are ALL the attractive adults off limits?  Idon't want to talk to anyone.

gnite

I ended on that the topic is Late Boomers, off of my interest in race, off of the interest in that we might wheeze and build a better tomorrow.  I seem to want the answers.  It's been 7 years... ) ) )

Following

Following on Twitter 3)

A Big Deal All the Time! D3

Why do Generation Y make such a big deal over getting attention from Late Boom?

New Pictures of Me

from the past 2 weeks

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Going to Bed

Guess I just have to go to bed, didn't even paint my nails.  xp

New Videos of Me

These are from the past maybe 2 weeks?

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Back

Showered.

Shaved.

Moisturizer on Face.  Chapstick.

9 hours til I leave and I want to do laundry now, or maybe in the morning?  Have lots to fold, a little to wash, would like to slow wash my belts, then my backpack, perhaps my lunchbox tomorrow evening|night.  I can listen to me singing "Skimbleshanks: the Railway Cat."  I don't have to practice but may, at least go over it tomorrow waiting.

Back

Jogged with weights, feel mad, met a tall thin black guy who graduated from Valencia, bought juice.  Have to wake up and leave at 11:35 A.M.

Mobile

Eating Tai

Green Curry + White Rice

I figured it out.

So, I will always think someone knows what I'm thinking.

Y

Why do people care about pleasing shitty people, since I've opened up here? Don't you realize how much that is? Why does that bother anyone? I didn't do anything. Me needing shit is 1 of the things I'm against. People are acting like undeserving people are white.

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Better, Though

I am better than most singers. Why get mad at imperfection and living life! Why I like singing.

All my accomplishments are seen as formulated and dead.

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So Uncool

Uncool people from California are dangerous and don't respect precious things. Precocious people think people do shit.

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So

Why didn't anyone else like Ginny? She teaches privately.

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I walked into a bar...

It had nice, big couches.

I asked to see the menu.

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I don't care.

I don't care if you want someone with light blonde hair.

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Impolite

People are so impolite to me.

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Phone

The lights keep alternating.

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In the Action

Why can Late Boomers experience the Generation Z action? You know there are issues with age of both parents and the race. I mean, even people born in 1997 are not on the dot.

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Good Movie

I forget what I liked.

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What?

Do you expect me to not know when you punish me or react in a way that doesn't make sense? Why are you so dramatically smashing? Why would you be sexy? I've tried, already. What do you think I am, shit for Tim Burton like his spoiled brat daughter, who is unworthless.

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Reactions-

Why do you rehash perverted thoughts whenever you've chosen to react to me?

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Issue

Ginny informed me she was born in 1958, I felt. So, what, she is worthless? Maybe not.

Let's oust the Late Boomers outta their club.

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Problem

**** this nigger.

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Flirtateous

Those niggers want to sit there and flirt about us kids. SHUT UP, NIGGER.

The lighting on my phone went down.

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Annoyed

The lighting on my cell phone is funny. Ginny and Ellen are Burtonesques niggers.

So, did someone do this to me? I'm tired of being told I don't have the right experiences.

Hey, leave me alone, niggers, I didn't do anything.

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After the Movie

Yogurt for $7+, movie stub, asked to have it back, 3D 8), only owed $5.

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That Attitude

So, Ginny wouldn't design a website where she can block members, probably drinks more.

Also, she seems to expect us to keep up. She didn't say anything about my new posts.

She has this as a joke. She really has to have that attitude.

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Tweet

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Y

Why do I get the idea that people like Ellen DeGeneres are subbing in suggestions like I can't get mad? I don't care, just noticing.

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Unfair

Ginny thinks I'm not a Generation Z child of a Late Boomer- She thinks I, therefore, have to flog myself for only seeing "The Hobbit," once. Why would some twit get to enjoy themselves for who they are and want to be, and where the hell that shit come from?

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Also

I also noticed people aren't talking to her on Facebook.

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I Decided

I needed more food. Hm. Fasting ain't bad.

The movie will relax me. I slept 12+ hours I think the past 3 nights.

I just seem bored. My body seems dead.

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Mobile

My Cycle

My m*********** is over as of Thursday or Friday.

Problem

Why does bullshit Ginny think she can look at me like some yellow nigger wanting ***?

Problem

I just got sorta ransacked and wanted to go somewhere today..

Problem

I just got threatened.

Poll's Here Poll's Here

I posted a new poll.  }=D

Theorom

So, people are into mixed people to defend heritage from the U.S. other than hot spots like New Orleans and Florida-  They are saying they themselves have families from other areas, which is usually considered prestigious, though I just realized everyone else is from there.

Showered

Had Cheese and PB crackers this morning, so goddamn gaunt hungry

Having lemon ice.

OK so

All I got was that it doesn't matter where you came from but matters where you're coming from.

People from Florida are white because they "didn't need" to mix with the indians.

So, what, you're not from Florida.  }:[

Problem

So, Ellen brushes aside a plethora of crap she spews online or whatever..

So, why would my mom be NYC Sears tower crap?  She wants to be something but is respectful, considered whiter than people they like.  How dumb.  Don't ruin my mom, you uglies, I know what you think you did not do.  Just **** Ellen.  :{  I think Ellen is gay and mean.  She's too gay to speak her mind because she's not that white?

Orlando ballet

What's so good about the ballet here?  I already tried going to all the places.  They're a bit fake.  I really don't get it.  They just aren't like constructed in the flesh.  They're more like there for fun but not good, not good people, as everyone knows.  I had this nice roommate with bright red hair who was homeschooled.  The ballet teacher's daughter looked very hollow as she got older, impressed everyone she encountered, also homeschooled.  I guess her mom moved to the New Orleans area or maybe her mom.  I thought they moved there later.  So, she's kinda gay.  Her dad is really nice, so I don't get it.  Her mom is so ***y.  Like, she has like a protruding forehead, reminds me of Ginny.  I guess her mom is ***ier.  I mean, my dad has ***y sisters.  It makes people mad that he's nice.  I kinda thought of myself as my mom because I thought it was sweet and it'd be gay otherwise because I'm a girl.  I relate to my dad like I'm the female!  He's not some perv born in 1953 like his sister.

Oh no! ^0^

Po', po' Lily.  I am not really mad at her.  I calmed down and simply reported it..  I am a bit actively violent about my parents, so-

Laundry

So, while my parents were at the grocery store and getting my little pizza, I put away laundry and ironed 2 loads.  I washed another load after they got back.  Now, I have to fold a heavy, heavy load and dry another and wash some more things.  I just don't really feel like it.  I have to rehearse on camera.  I'm a little weak, should think of going for a jog with weights, not sure how far I'll make it.

Dessert

Like almost 10 Caramel Delights, Girl Scout Cookies, used to be called Samoas.

Problems

So, these gay farts born in the mid 40s think that they said like okay it's your choice to be quality old-fashioned European.  Now, like, they just flubbed up.  Wow, what a big deal over nothing.  Talk about power at the wheel.

I got another idea that Ginny is riding along the idea I'm like my little brother.  That's totally Hellenistic.  Let's make my dad his dead brothers.  Come on, you nigger.  You dumb fuck.

What else?  I got some violent thoughts @ Lily Rose.  I got the idea she's communicated with people who know me.. and put that picture up to say that I was old like my dad and my relations go in that way to someone who is racist against me.  They worsened as my mom like chimed in, supposedly under influence of my dad.  She would get mad at these thoughts, but I mean she just gets mad if she sees me thinking mad things about her because I can't help it.  I don't know what she does when I thought of things like that.  I'm grown up, now, so it doesn't matter.  She might see there is a reason and I don't mean it and it might be other people's faults.  I didn't want to.  I finally felt theraputic and calmed down, but then my mom made me mad again by thinking it was a joke like Ellen.

Hey, why is Ginny so flippant and intent on making other successful people feel like crap?  That's no one's fault Ginny.  I don't feel sorry for the likes of you in Florida..  What the fuck is your problem?  I wonder if she is on Facebook and blocked me.  She doesn't have many new friends.  I could ask her after class.. you know, she rushes after class, but I hope it's not because of Facebook.  She can teach me once a week.  Why does she bother talking to anyone, that goddamn nigger.  Why don't we just **** her?

What's this sentiment I sound like my little brother when talking about shit like Lily Rose and "Órla" "Karron" "Fallon."  Also, stop saying I offended you by not being as ***y as my mom because her race isn't white.  What's this shit with my dad now?  I thought that was settled, you goddamn nigger.

Problem

So, I came in all happy and positive, did my laundry yesterday, thinking how I was like my dad like a fairy girl in a garden.  Then, my dad just sorta turned off.  Maybe his age?  See, we have to fix it.  He's already a certain kind of person and a certain age.  He just always has a problem.  Hm, the door just opened and I heard a chain from the dog.  Oh, I was thinking how sweet the Louisianian|Mississippi dog was from the New Orleans portion of the U.S.  I kept like rubbing him with my foot.

Ate

I had a wrap with 2 chicken breasts without bones, so they were pretty thin.  I had long lettuce leaves, yellow American cheese.., which seems usually to be yellow as far as I know, a thin wheat wrap though it seems my dad didn't get pita, and ranch dressing.  I'm gonna have Samoa type cookies from the grocery now.  I also have the raspberry Dove candies from Valentine's.

Problem

Can you just leave me alone, you niggers?

I got a bad message, and my mom chimed in again something that annoyed me, like she's younger, why?  I never wanted to be older, in that way..  Look, stop being a bastard on the net- and being so gay!  If you don't know, people are different online.  It's some suggestion they let out.  In real life, it's different.  You go online and expect to find that you're good and that others are enwrapped in some other culture.

What about my future kids?  Someone may want to hurt them.  I don't want to deal with that fantasy.

Why are people like Tim Burton starting ooh look how much work we went into to give you this message, this nasty message, that you can't have this you can't have that, your dad is old.  He was only 35 when I was born.

Problem

You gay niggers, I don't need to talk to my parents and my dad.

Problem

Stop you gay niggers from the South and North because you're bad and shit and nothing criticizing everything because you're not shit stop telling me what to do you goddamn niggers I'm gonna **** you.

Problem

LEAVE ME ALONE

I don't give a fuck about my schizo dad.  Stop messin' with me.  Do my homework for me, Ginny, you're messin' with my life.  Or **** Ellen.

Problems

So, my parents want to do something again just because I got mad online and they're not even motherfuckin' lookin'.  I got reminded when someone kept my driver's license card that other dads are different and something about my dad is miscalculated.  Like, other dads serve their daughters in their tempers.  My dad just gets racist and tries to stupidly rub in how our family isn't like others, but I've been in the wor'd.  3|  )))  I don't care about that nigger gay Ellen who needs things to feel so comforted like a fooze (gauze) to her and acts like I need to be punished.  Stop it you gay nigger.  Someone stop her.  Stop talking to my parents like that?  Wow, I'd love to be considered like happy if Ellen would meet my parents.  Stop being so gay you nigger.  You're the gay nigger.

Oops Forgot..

You think you had some chance because of who your parents were and someone was better because they are not like their parents in a bad way?  What bad way?  They are just different, better.  ♥

Why Would

My dad do all the perverted things a younger dad does?  I can't connect to him in that way.  I just get a yellow spot in his underwear and an empty space otherwise.  I just say I'm from Florida.  I can't go um I relate to my dad in the same manner you relate to yours.  No, I'm younger.  I'm not my dad's generation.  Everyone strives to be as good as Late Boom.  It's not some sorority.

Fleeing to NYC|Atlanta

It seems everyone is feeling there thinking some nigger girl like me with a dad with ancestry in Pennsylvania primarily thinks she can be a southerner because she was born there.  People trot over here from New Jersey and say it's to eradicate our familial dreams, in thinking we can be Floridians, and they are dubbed over as honorary Floridians but not really over all others.  Chloë Grace Moretz's sassy, stuck-up, but genial mom flew her famous daughter who worked with Tim Burton to NYC in order to escape the fact that Florida and L.A. are taken over.  Why not New Orleans?  No straight answer to me..  Then, there's Peyton List who moved to NYC and then L.A., won't say where in Florida she is from, but I asked on IMDb, can ask on Yahoo! Answers.  Mind, Peyton List is younger.  Also, Bella Thorne looks a bit lose, maybe good culturally, just kinda unopen.  Chloë Grace Moretz is so stuck up thinking she's the pure blood from the South.  The people from the South just assumed that the north blood was a failure, but I know it's because of the Native American indian but you know am not like figured out sure.  They're packing their things, see how I'm nice but eradicate me anyway.  They're just like beetles who see in 1 direction.  Guess I'll go get my lunch.  So, you can see that people think that just becuse others from an area are bad, that I am, too, and also they'll just say it's simply because I have Native American blood and because I don't want to suffer and that I can't change it.  I won't act different.  I just want to say it doesn't matter.  No, I'm not 100% sure I have it, and in saying something like that, I feel someone would think I was tacky.  People even think you are bad to be courteous to me.  They think life is some floozy game.  It's like Britney Spears, put your shit here, the horny people from Louisiana who just bark bark bark cut out ways of being human, have no appreciation for being modern in a way.  Cannot connect ideas, don't know anything positive there in relating to others, like the mixed indians better.. I mean must be the same thing as northern indians but better, just maybe think of 1s who aren't mixed?  So, they only want to file in people from the south, with Southern blood, not sure about the Fannings, with ancestors in I think South Carolina, not North Carolina??  I know sometimes they prefer Pennsylvanians over them, but I dunno.  I guess they'd be interested in bad people from up north.

IMDb

Dream

It's hard to remember.  I was in this place.  I went on a ride, like in a big mall.  1st, we were eating something like slush, then something else, and maybe cotton candy.  We went to sit on the knee of a more gaunt but a bit blubbery yet more sharp lady, the little kids stayed, you know sorta stronger kids around age 4 maybe, but I told my brother to save me a space because I had to go to the bathroom.  I ran to this store and asked but didn't see it.  I ran and asked a handsome, quirky policeman, you know, like a guy from Atlanta.. and he told me to go to a certain corner, looked like a hotel with people coming from up north, but I didn't see it.  I ran back.

Then, I was about to audition and was thinking of Céline Dion, 2 pictures when she was little, and it made me think she was more like compiledly built then that she was hollow.  It made me get a sorta tingly shaped stimulated feeling and I couldn't get it back.  I don't know why.  I kept trying to think of it.  Then, I imagined it was my aunt whose lap I was on for a long time.  Her daughter was there.  I thought this was real becuase I wanted to m*********.  She just swept me over to another room and left me there, I guess so I could m*********.  I had a hard time.  I guess I woke up soon and realized it wasn't real.  I was hoping I was alone in this big hotel room with like a big, feathery goose bed.  It had different compartments jutting out and a big master bedroom.

injuns 8888-| )))

So, why aren't northern indians Italian?  Southern 1s are French and Spanish.

Jews

They are not really hairy.

Jews

So many people, I find that Jewish last names come up, in the U.S.  Supposedly, in Germany, they are mixed with Romanesque blood.  That's probably the Southeasterners.

Jews

So, they lived all along the 2 sides, so up to Holland (the Dutch) and Russia|Poland..

Caught More

So, Ellen lets little girls open to anything because they are not part Jewish?  Nor Native American..

So, Native Americans are kinda black, and so are Jews, supposedly they would be like blacks, but I don't see why, I mean I know it's by Africa, but why would they be just more black than Egyptians and maybe even Middle Easterners..who are like Asians, which are seen as not as black.

German

Does anyone know like if all the Germans from the north are the non-Jews?  Anyone but Southern Germans?  So that means they seem more cutesy and Dutch?

What It Seems

That indian lady from Valencia CC seems like someone from my past, like someone who died, like in Harry Potter, who was like in the parental generation, but Ginny is still around but you know like too old.

It's scary when you think how a part Native American is displayed.  I remember surfing online and finding a statue of a Cajun lady with indian blood I think.  I imagine it feels human but seems so inhumane.  I have this friend who thinks she's German but prejudiced just like an English, with white hair until I guess now and dyes it.  Also, what else, like she seems prejudiced as well, like many people, really, on anyone with part indian blood, like a fire in their eyes, some thing that isn't human, that doesn't have feelings, that doesn't think.  "But what about the animals," her mother tells her father.

Where You're From

I'm not from Pennsylvania, but I've been there lots of times.  I mean, I have a friend who moved to Florida from New Jersey, and she's very modern, seems very Floridian.  My other friend from Boston is very urban but lives in a country house.  I moved back to Florida from New Orleans, and I feel rather numb.  So, my point is, I think it's some prejudice about me having a dad from Pennsylvania.  People tend to like Boston and NYC.  Maine is the only other state by the water.  So, the U.S. is pretty small.  I don't know why New Jersey would be cooler than Boston.  NYC is just an island.  I think people from Pennsylvania try to move out.  They seem stuck in some cheesy Irish situation.  People with more recent ancestors from Ireland often settle through Pennsylvania.  I saw the ancestry.  There are lots of people with ancestors partly from Pennsylvania, which makes them mixed.  It means they're out in being non-Pennsylvanian, or a "normal" American.  They'll just find themselves tied to it in some ways..  Look for places like Chicago, Detroit ... Milwaukee.  There's nothing in Pennsylvania but the Pennsylvania Dutch, which are also bowled over in racism.  There is nothing wrong with the Swiss, but the Germans use it as a racial barrier with the Italians because they are antsy about all the Jews infested in their lowlands since the Middle Ages.  Then, you'll find all the places in the big west.  I'm not sure who they're providing for, probably people from Pennsylvania and New York who've moved to places in the South, urban areas like Florida and New Orleans.  I found people even from Virginia to be very streetsmart.  See, I just thought Pennsylvania was like the best thing so strived to equal it.  Being from Florida, I knew I had nothing in it without a father from Florida nor some place like NYC.  I just provided the bare bones in life to all I encountered but wasn't considered gung ho.  My mom just seems attuned to moving to Pennsylvania, I bet because the reason they moved here was because my dad's youngest sister moved here, 1st, meaning it would affect like my reason for existence, which would be a peeving insult to her.  I found that I'm not interested in people with Native American indian and am more interested in those with parents from places like California and New Orleans.  I just am worried about having babies with someone who is part Native American who doesn't have like more ancient white culture attached in a place that is Spanish-inhabited.  I don't think I would unless I really liked them because then people would make fun of me.  I knew a girl who moved here from NYC, and her sister was really cool, her little sister.  She seemed totally out physically.  In the New Orleans area, I am not sure, because I know my ballet teacher supposedly studied at a school there, but her family supposedly isn't from there.  It seems rather obvious.  The kids seem less like interesting.  I know some girls with a mom from New Orleans and a dad from the suburb, and their dad is really cool.  The girls are cool but not very sociable but talkative.  They even nursed in prek.  I think people are just really interested in people with heritage from a long time ago in a place that's not like Pennsylvania nor so much just Wisconsin since they're so friendly even to Pennsylvanians, who seem stereotyped as Native Americans interested in the PA Dutch.  I think people mixed with Northern Native Americans ... not very happy people.  The 1s down south are probably pretty creepy but probably provide a lot of cultural incitement like the blacks in NYC.  The 1s in NO are so prejudiced, like if you don't know what "the projects" means.  I still don't.  I just know that me being in the suburb that the fat black lady with the tail of kids hanging from her buttcheeks is whiter than me like my pet hamster that almost committed suicide in its tube I bought it.  How is Chinese Indonesian "the 1?"  The attractive 1.  What about me?  I've spent my whole life warding off showing off like attempts at being attractive or something like that.  I just never was.  Not really sure why my mom is?  My dad is more intellectual but a nice guy intellectually when he's not stupid.  He even plays guitar, like did pop music and now does folksy stuff but not like pleasure folk you know like those old guys?  He's more civilized like his dad.  All I can say is Pennsylvania is sticking for the mixed indians, so no one likes them.  Help save Ginny!  Even Ellen thinks she's so cool being Jewish with an Italian.  She won't figure out some other answer right away.  I mean she would already know.  That Native American girl looks like me, though, so I am not sure.  My mom doesn't have indian, though.  I thought that mixed indians look like my family, but I don't know.  I mean, I look more like that in my skin.  There's this freaky Native American white lady who looks like she's from Altamonte Springs hanging in the theater department of Valencia who died in like 2000.  It's just that I'm a really good person who happens to be indian.  I don't really get it.  It seems sneaky.  I don't know for sure.  I mean, I guess it doesn't matter so much I don't know for sure my European ethnicities.  I do like Middle Eastern, though.

Completely Foreign

So, you could say my life ain't that great.  I mean, I do have a mom from out-of-the-U.S.  My dad, though, is American.  I guess you're looking for a completely foreign family.

Plonk

Have to go to bed soon.

Oh - do you know?

Does anyone know anyone with the original families from Southeastern Florida?

When pondering on if they have families originally migrated to Florida as opposed to 1s from the rest of the U.S., I mean, there might be Hispanics from Northeastern Florida.  Some families may not be white, neither..  Not sure if it's the very attractive and wealthy, like the kinds of people who came here.  I guess I Would favor the fact that the immigrants have that U.S. culture but that from out-of-the-U.S. 1st would be more true to the Florida spirit.  I mean, what if it was someone from New Orleans?

Ate

I had the hamburger.

I cooked. 3I all the greens from a plastic box in water, in 2 servings.  I didn't finish the mac and cheese.  I had a thick hunk of beef with blood dripping, so good, but not like red red blood.  I had a little bowl of blackberries.  3)  Ice water.

Sent

I sent the e-mail.

Email

Dear Students of Valencia CC,

I invite you to play tennis with me this Tuesday and Thursday from 11AM-12PM at Valencia CC.  Bring your own racket, and I will bring the balls.

Christina Ann B.

Tennis Date

Gotta figure this out..guess I'll do it Tuesday, see who comes.  I'll plan a later meet, maybe not Thursday but dunno mean I might practice alone.  We don't know.  I'll be available this week, I guess, guess I'll plan for 11-12, gotta have a big breakfast, though.

Eating

Had a few slices of leftover pizza..wrong kind

making a hamburger and cooking leaves in the water in a pan covered, canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni & Cheese, gonna have it with thin probably rye buns my dad got me I said I wanted with Heinz ketchup

Tags

I added 2 more tags to the last post.

YouTube

Me Talking to Ginny Tonight

YouTube

Edit

I fixed the Cousin link under People.  It's at the end.  The n was off.

I just called Ginny.

Loading the video to YouTube.

Synex

Schedule

I am allowed to do organ.  It seems like a special thing, off campus.

I wanted to go to like her classes at the other cc that semester before but am not so sure now maybe because the van is not so easy and the bus ride will be maybe an hour longer with maybe 2 changes.  So, for whatever reason, I think I won't.  I guess if I'm still around next year, I'll go there and take the Speech and Voice and Articulation I|II class.  I mean, it won't be as juvenile.  It just isn't a nice change.  It would just give me something to do.  I don't really know what she does each semester there.  I anticipate she will do something new again, but maybe she is too old.  She doesn't seem satisfied.  I don't know if she is popular, but the kids in her classes suck at this big community college.  You know, she used to teach at UCF and the big private school, well high ranked and small..

So, then, probably, my dad would be driving me to do stuff.  I think the adult gymnastics are on Tuesdays, and her classes are Tuesdays and Thursdays.  I was thinking of working out in more than 1 class but can do Mondays and Wednesdays in the mornings, if they still do it, Body Pump, 5:30-6:25 A.M.  I could go and come home and sleep.  I don't have to do this, just kinda upset about like coming home and sleeping at midnight and I guess paying for a van at 4 A.M., waking up with 3 hours of sleep, coming home after and sleeping.. sounds kinda fun but you know maybe not the best idea.  If I weren't taking her classes, I might be in ballet at CFB.  I mean, the ideal would be to do something in the mornings, but these classes seem more like night classes and I anticipated that they were adults.  I guess this semester is Acting I.  I just wonder, guess this is the plan for here.  I mean, I wonder...it just seems like an inactive semester.  I don't think I will have time to practice voice, voice lab, and ensemble, also want performance group.  I get the feeling I'm getting too old and need to be on the ball and refine myself for the future, if possible, but it seems that's not my best option.  I really want to do the Body Pump in the mornings in the fall, which is like over ... okay I'm back.  So, I mean, it seems like a rushed schedule.  Maybe, I should find something to do at Valencia, instead.  I mean, that would be fun, if I wasn't doing anything.  Maybe, I can take singing.  I mean, it's a lot to do.  I don't think the classes she's teaching have a lot of homework.  I'd like to do the classes at Seminole so may consider that.  I guess I should ask her to take voice, maybe call her now?

These Dreams

Did you ever suspect that someone was reverie-ing in some weird thoughts about you, like your clothes are too nice?  But not really old-fashioned..

So-- tell me watcha want watcha really really want

So, I want to plan an ideal fall semester, when I take Ginny's Dialects and Stage Movement class.  I'll be ½ her age sometime this semester.  Last semester, I learned to sing and dance in front of the camera and from my birthday, started watching her show around then, started to be more motherly and also started to feel around the same time.

So, I don't want Weight Training again.  They have this class that's maybe nearly 2 hours a day like around 11-1 where you do rather than machines aerobics and they talk about nutrition. 3I ½ hour a week.  It seems more like a holistic or wellness class rather than a fitness class..

Why

Why pick on me for my past, like always like 24/7 around me when you want to like get through with me just bat on me that I should have taken jazz dance?  You think that would have made me happier.  I wasn't even supposed to be on dance team, it seems, in some important ways, but it's not ballet, theater ... art ...

Plus, I even don't feel like wasting my time in shitty ballet classes.

*sigh*

So, I have to go watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," she likes me but believes I am shit..I actually am very against pretending that.  You know, like my whole life, that's 1 of my only points.  }=]

Edit

I edited Ginny's description.

Seriously

Ellen wouldn't be mean to me.

My Race

I only want to be white, so stop saying I want what Rihanna wants, you niggers.  I never did.  I'm just white!  Goddammnit you goddamn niggers.

So

Now, what can I do?  I'm sick and hungry.  I need my supper..

Why

Why are Ellen and Ginny so stupid?

Problem

I was gonna have cake, possibly even go for a jog, also have some hw, have to go over the scripts, now what?

This is probably to do with Ginny, the nigger.

Sick

Now, I need Mucinex for my sore throat.  I have sniffles, as well, though.  :|

Problem

Ginny, you think it's funny, huh?

Mad

My pizza was thin, 2 layers of pepperoni, no extra cheese, no extra sauce, from Pizza Hut, though.  My dad said it was the right order like a nigger.

Eating

Pizza Hut
Ice COld Water 3]

listening to "Skimbleshanks: the Railway Cat" from Cats the musical by ALW®

on my nu playlist

Ate

Liverwurst
Samoa type Cookies
Raspberry Dove Candies 3) from Valentine's, didn't pass out much

Problem

Do you agree Ellen DeGeneres is a really mean person?  That's all she does.  She thinks that reacting to you means she can balance it off.  She has nothing to say.

Also, while I'm at it, she thinks because she's from New Orleans you can't enjoy anything.

Also, no, Ellen is not the same as your X, that's what I'm against.

So, Ellen being really nice is not something I asked for but something I appreciated, but I find that I'm feeling like I'm nothing for no reason.

I will not accept Ginny nor others of course accepting Generation Z kids and not me because that is sneaky and there is no reason, you know?

Funny

Ooh look at that fart bomb, Ellen DeGeneres is only something because her mom is white.  She's so ***y.

Guess what?

I keep getting messed with..  I have no idea why.  Why don't you talk about something that's not so stupid?

What's Ellen DeGeneres's problem?  She says oh yes I did mean to hurt you but I didn't.

Problem

Stop being mean to me all the time you niggers.

Issue

I wish my teacher would realize I don't like how she behaves.  It's like she thinks we're not good enough for her.  She's acting like she's sorta I guess unattainable.  That's fine, but I don't like it.

Problem

Hey stop all the time thinking about how I don't deserve attention.  I'm like 26 now.

I find it weird.

So, I feel I'm being made fun of for saying I was born on the beach, though people are worried about being born inland where it's more solid and even more up north.

I think that people really have cut into my life because of Tim Burton and made it unable to be a success story.

Ate

Cream Cheese & Chives Crackers

Just my mom is here, I think.

Cute Ad

It showed a guy as a police with like a tube like a horn pointing it at you ... funny police want in on the action, knew that, rather than working on like things psychologists do..

How I'm Feeling

I look a lot leaner, not as much too me, but I seem to have some elasticity to me in the form of muscular strength in my belly.

Just Woke Up

Guess I slept for 13½ hours.  I woke up once to go to the bathroom and soon after was in bed I think.  I remember my dream buying pizza and walking out and walking back in and paying.  Then I went to 2 places that sold candy and relatively good sweets, reminds me of the bake sales at the cc.  I went in with my mom and brother.  At 1 place before I was with them I accidentally found I opened a long stick of marshmallow covered in chocolate.  I got the good thin piece of cake that was left.  I saw, too, like a $5 monstrous chocolate cupcake with lots of chocolate frosting and flowers, but it was gone and I climbed up to look for it with my brother onlooking, like the blocks in theater class where I had a hard time making it through against the wall, a tiny space with a drop.

Tired

Guess I will lie down, maybe sleep or turn off my computer.  :|  Don't want to but guess I will, might find something else to do, might be time for bed.

Ate

Canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni and Cheese

People

Some people are so set to be a certain way and can't connect to others.

Didn't Listen

My idea for my brother has always been for him to have like honey hair that poofs up and glistens a little and it was light brown but not honey.  It was so limp.  My mom didn't have him do sports as early as me, and it messed him up.  Plus, he just did tennis ... and then my mom didn't have him practice.  I mean, I wouldn't have to practice with him.  He can go practice alone while I do homework.  My mom didn't let me do something else, and I also liked tennis.  He should have done other things, too.

Problem

You can't tell me how to deal with other people.  They can figure out what they want for themselves and not just decide I'm not some exception and that bad kids only get to feel comforted.

What was he supposed to do?

What is my brother supposed to do?  Not approach my dad?  Why is he so much like him?  My dad used to just maybe stimulate him as a boy, but I have no idea what it was.  I know that people born a long time ago are more European.  I think it centers on Late Boom and Generation XY..

What Do I Intend to Find in Time

You'll find that different people deserve different things, as time goes on.

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I'm me!

Why did I change when my brother was born?

Problem

Don't just blame my dad because he's been looking better in some ways.

Ate

Liverwurst

Checks and Balances

Why do I have a plastered look like my brother?  I know I wanted the sculpted face.

Me Hun Gry

Wow, I look old in that video.  I am having a hard time making it to bed, you know, don't feel like it, didn't go anywhere because I felt so mellow, probably because I didn't take a shower?

New Videos of Me

Calling Ginny! ♥♥

YouTube

Still Tired

I don't know why, maybe from the disability van.  The bus is kinda exciting.  I wish I could go to the mall but feel tired.  I don't even feel like watching TV.  I don't know if I should eat, might have some Lemon Ice.  I don't really feel like getting up and singing.  Ginny lets us call her, but I like posting online in public, too late now possibly, but maybe I should try,.,.

Already Wanted

I already wanted to be old-fashioned.

Wondering

I wonder why my mom doesn't get along with my dad.  He just won't stop being mean to me, not in a noticeable way, saying he can't hold it in with me, and that I don't deserve his attention.

Facebook Post

I hope she's still eating her candy?

Photo

New Videos of Me Singing

YouTube

nu playlist. :)

Problem

I was never mean to Ginny.. she seems to be staying off online because of me.  What does that say about her, uh, "character?"  She's so stupid because of Tim Burton.  She thinks the other kids are better than me, but that doesn't mean you can like literally think I just "said something."

Problem

I don't need retarded granny exercises to ruin my life of logic.

Problem

GINNY YOU RETARDED BASTARD GO KILL EVERYONE NOT FROM FLORIDA.

What?

You just think anyone not born in 1960 is shit?

Problem

What's wrong with not being famous?  Some people have hard lives.  Go yell at the starving boy in Africa..

Problem

When I figure something out, my dad just tells me I'm not listening.

In Order to Make an Impression

Why would anyone start out fat in order to make an impression?

I did want to do ballet at a good school.  You know, gymnastics is good.  3I

Problem

Why should Ellen tell me I'm bad when everyone thinks I'm the sweetest, shyest, nicest person my whole life, since the fart of Tim Burton?  What does she deserve all that world attention?

No Excuses

My teacher is a lunatic.  She thinks I have no moral excuse.

Silly? Unaccepted?

My teacher is looking at me like I haven't made sacrifices, like I wasn't born perfect.

I don't know if she's not posting on her Facebook or if she was simply able to block me..

Anti-New Orleans

Why is everyone so anti-New Orleanian?

I guess in the city, they are more like precise, you know the island in the water.

I mean, even people who have lived there.

Y O Y

Why am I the lame 1 with no racial convictions if I'm so successful?

Ate My Dinner (Supper)

2 French Bread Pizzas w|Pepperoni..
Have orange tic tacs..

New Cell Phone Cover

Light Blue Diamonds ... should have had a light blue backdrop.

Thinks She's White

Ellen thinks she's white because she's from jazz and not non-white with stupid PA mudblood.

Munching

on Cream Cheese & Chives crackers

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Prob-le-emm

Why do Late Boom moms let their younger, more white racially "Generation YZ|Z" kids get away with things?

Wrrong

You find Ellen in err.  Interview the people she likes better.  She just has to find out what she has to find out.  She is not interested in being online.

Cool Girl-

I went over to the cute girl when the teacher was out.  She came in and sat next to me.. a bit tacky not sure why don't like it.. and I jumped out and the jewels on her body jingled.

Problem

Look, Ellen, I'm different from everyone my age.

Backstage

I said I could work backstage.

Procrastination | Putting Things Off

Why would people just hope the future is bright and not do anything to achieve their like peak dreams at the time being?

Nigger

Why do people like Ellen suggest mean things?  I mean like if something is supposed to be, she just has some perverted irritation to do the opposite in some complicated way with "another goal" in mind, forgetting like Tim Burton that she disapproves of the fact that people are being mistreated otherwise, normal people, probably doesn't think of the right details for everyone..

oh noes

My teacher is looking tacky and is mean as the result but will be happy when she is fixed.

King of the Net

Ellen is not king of the net because she thinks no one who's seen her show a long time ago can go on because they thought they could live a different life, not watching any live TV shows.

"Oh, where are you going?" ♪

People in California want to go to Europe.

Stop Ignoring

You need to stop ignoring Generation XY thinking that their thinking they are something is crap because they didn't go through crap, of Generation X and YZ.

I mean...

Like, that can't be what you enjoyed instead of the arts and sports.

All About If You're White

Why would you base life on non-whites?  I mean, what's happened ... there was the war with the Jews ... some other war? The Middle East these days. The Vietnam and Korean wars..  Then, there was America and England in 1776.. The Spanish and the Polish much longer ago

Also

Tim Burton just farts into the idea that thinking people's negative, sorta prejudiced reactions to him are not a problem and that if you say so you're out, on account of Johnny Depp, though he doesn't approve of what Johnny Depp does.  x|

I know what the problem is..

Oh, so some kid born in 1992 or 1998 could say that and be considered not tacky.  I said the problem was your reaction to Tim Burton.

What?

So, whey does Ellen DeGeneres seem to think ... like that she needs to like dig into my past and highlight things that embarrass me?  That's not really what interests me.  Those things are not my desires.  There's so much more stuff out there..  :|

Problem

Shouldn't my dad just be counted out of his immoral tendencies toward the Late Boom generation?  He must have a psychiatric disorder.  I don't know where to commit him for a nice appointment.  }:]  He just bothers me and affects the childrens at Ginny's class-

Everything I Do

So, anything I do, some kid born in 1992 or 1998 will just tell me I'm crap?

Problem

Maybe, we should say Ellen has a "special problem," wants to eradicate anyone with old dads and doesn't let people with younger moms socialize with ones with moms who are older.

Problem

Ellen can't judge who we have our parents in style of by the age of our parents.

Reactions

Did you notice people only react a certain way to kids born in 1992, 1998, and around 1960?

Twitter

Fort Lauderdale ) ) ) B|

I don't even know if my dad worked there.

It's so HAT (hot)

I need a fan, not a big 1, I guess, dunno, wanted 1 to make more noise but have a noisemaker, which isn't as loud.  So, what, $60?  Have to ask my dad maybe soon.. he should get 1, at least when he gets some more money, I am sick but not sure why the house is so hot.  I'm dripping sweat but did wake up kinda like sick and tired.. :| pretty like knobbly. :|

TV

I think my dad hasn't fixed my TV.  It's supposed to get "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and record.

Relaxing

I'm calling to reserve my trip, waiting to ice my cake.  I have to go over my act.  I might have other things, journal due at end of month, think we had to keep a little booklet.  Wasn't on the ball.  Been typing out journal reveries.

Washing

I'm washing my vitamin case.. have laundry, too, and so does my mom, have to fold.  Didn't even reserve the van for next week but hope to take the bus.

Tired

I took a shower when I woke up.  Waiting for the cake to cool, have to frost|ice it.

DayQuil

I took my 2 DayQuil soon after waking up and some of my orange tic tacs from the C store, which here is called the Valencia Bookstore.  At Loyola UNO they had Odwalla smoothies..and some other things, like wraps I got sometime and even a pizza hut..in there.

Cooking. 3I

Thick, Juicy Hunk of Beef (want to eat ribs.... p3 )
Zucchini, Cooked. 3I in Water
Canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni & Cheese (had French Bread pizzas last night, 2 from a pack, pepperoni..)
baking a probably more lush chocolate cake with rich, chocolate frosting

Y O Y

Why won't Ellen DeGeneres let older kids be pampered like kids born in 1992 or 1998?  She thinks it's "the" experience.  Did you know she is associated with these younger generations?  I guess I have to question the generations in between?  I kinda followed them.

You know we grew up being surrounded with the discipline to be shit like the older generations but not grand in the style of.

Movies I'm Seeing

This Weekend: Escape from Planet Earth
Next Weekend: Jack, the Giant Slayer
The Following Weekend: Oz, the Great and Powerful

I'm also seeing Wicked (The Wizard of Oz, saw ads a lot for awhile on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show") for free, since I tripped on my ankle and it hurt so much for at least a day and I had to use a crutch cane that was so cool and still have it..  3D

New Text Box

Reputation

My oldest aunt's attitude has been onto me, like my bad cousin.

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Facebook Post

To Ginny, limited

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Problem

Get my dad's bullshit outta here.. Supposedly he thinks my brother is a nigger offering for his sweet grandma. Don't tell me I'm not something, a nigger.

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Problem

Get that Pennsylvania crap outta here. They are frantic to become New Orleanian. Just **** them. Just **** my dad, he's insane. Shut up, nigger.

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No More Thoughts

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Bus

I want to see if I can wake up early and take the bus next week, instead of the disability van, which is okay. They stop ... I think I remember.

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**** My Dad

He ****ed Ginny. He has stupid pewrverted selfish backhanded bullshit with his mommy and thinks he's worth any shit like that nigger brat Ellen DeGeneres, who does mean things all the time.

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Problems

I don't need this bullshit because of your shit with Tim Burton. You'll be sorry you didn't listen to me.

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Constant Inklings!

I keep getting shitty messages and suggestions in my personal relationships, and people just say my dad wasn't as attractive as my mom.. So I'm nice? Now, what?

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Something Prejudiced

Teachers claim to approve of me. They make up silly social rules. The teacher said to hand in a vocal evaluation and then said I handed in a journal. I already handed it in. She gave it back. I don't give a crap for that shit. I'm not gonna say oh I'm something because I submit to the well-fed generation.

There are people walking around. My dad thinks I have no more weekends, what a nigger. I just was upset at his bullshit in the kitchen.

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Bye

It's show'r time!

ow

My right shoulder hurts.

Sinex

some minutes ago

Pied Piper

Did you realize that we've been led like the Pied Piper to not be able to be funny as the years go?

Psychology?

I am a tactual learner..I remember personalities.

Excuses, Excuses

Why do you keep saying you think something and then go in your mole hole?

I should be able to act.

I just found that I can think of different things in music at the same time and I guess in some ways I can see art in 2D or something and 3D, as well, but in theater, I just like don't retain information that doesn't flow like a chart.

Racial Tools

So, we can use them against. others.

hw help

I should ask the teacher why it's so laborious to read these goddamn stupid useless worthless scripts at a community college-

Standing at the Bri ink

I mean, it's time for me to socialize and be an ideal person, and I'm not a tacky Italian.

Problem

Every time I think of a sneaky way of enjoying something everyone's mother and brother does, someone just notices and says I did something else.

hw

The kids in my group are gonna come in and say they read the play.

HELP!

My $20 is gone.

WOW

It's easier to talk, though, and breathing is okay otherwise.  :|

AH

I still have heavy congestion.  I don't think I can get anything else.  Sinex is also for headaches..  Maybe, I should be more deliberate, but I thought it was a total thing.  :{  I mean, I've done this before.

OK

Shower and Nail Polish

Insistent on Perfect Looks

Some people are too insistent that they look too perfect.  }:]

No Prob-le-em m

I am not nice to mean people.

2nd Theater Teacher

Also unavailable.. ***y but not Late Boom but French last name.  Got married and became a speech thearpist..

So

Cherie is not mean to people with parents born in 1950.  :|

Facebook Post

Mardi Gras

Nice picture.. I gave out Sponge Bob Square Pants class cards @ Mardi Gras @ my cc. I take all the theater classes from the voice instructor at Disney since the mid-80s.. }:] If you want to add me as as friend, you have my permission, since I've already sent you a request, + a pm..

Ah!

So, I guess it's time for a shower, I guess a bath.. and then to bed .. really want to analyze my script for tomorrow.. gotta leave a note for $20 for school tomorrow.

I guess

A boy in drama's last name Guess.. said his last name could be the sticker on his shirt.. chased outta drama by the boy from New Orleans.. (who left..)

So, ... Yea, when drama was slow I did more activities.  Clubs, music groups.

Store

I got thick glitter nail polish, there was cheap 1s, silver with a little blue, and I got regular blue with some silver that actually cost a lot, @ Wal-Mart.

I want to be the waver at the front of the new Disney parade.  In the summer, I might spend it going to Disney, not sure what else, guess I'll post online, sing more.. was gonna do gymnastics, not sure if I will if I go to Disney.  }:]

Twitter Post

I looked up Key West ghost tours Twitter then accidentally the 'Key West' and 'ghost tours' and not Twitter because I was tired of following instructions and being nice.  }:[

Got Back

I was on Twitter..

So, I got Sinex DayQuil & NightQuil and just took 2 Nightquils, stopped practicing in the woods.  8|

So, I'm gonna go take a shower-bath.

I realized that this boy who was so cute from New Orleans had sinus but was like feeling sorry for me coughing so loudly..  Now, his skin looks more moist dripping on the edges.  He was rather stereotypical, but I don't know what happened.  He was just different from everyone.

I was supposed to get in Talented Music 2nd semester and be in Talented Theater.  I wanted to do theater in junior high, think my mom got me the info. like in 8th grade and maybe I was too tired and busy then.  I think I asked when we moved there but had my mind in things like classical music..  Before, I planned to quit gymnastics and do ballet when I moved.  I got scoliosis and looked like old and European.  The ballet classes when I moved healed it.  So, I just stayed in, as 1 reason.

8p

Well, okay, then..

I also realized I just want to be like a Generation Z Tween bo'n in 1998.  xp  It's nice to have a young mom.. but I mean she's note white so..  She was supposed to start having kids when she was like 19.  My dad was 35..

Racial Attraction

The psychiatrist and I found out, a little thin brown guy, that the kids didn't think I was attractive because they are racist.

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Why does

Ginny think she has more modern culture than me?

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What can I do?

I don't want to take weight training in the fall but want to work out in the mornings. I want to teach ballet at 5 in the morning M-Th.

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Flip-Flops

I cleaned off my flip-flops.

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My Papers

Someone took my practice papers, we're going to the psychiatrist and then asking to get some fast food and I guess going home .. want to get powder for my face and earplugs this time, too.  Gonna have fun this weekend, I guess, maybe see a movie, go to the mall, of course..

Psychiatrist

So, tomorrow at noon I see a psychiatrist I think to get an excuse for financial aid for the fall..my therapist appointment is canceled.  The weight training is keeping me up.  I want to watch some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I will go to bed after, probably, maybe a quick shower.  I need a lot of sleep, to practice, to analyze the script, to e-mail about the script and about tennis..then go to bed, I guess.