Edit

I fixed the Cousin link under People.  It's at the end.  The n was off.

I just called Ginny.

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Synex

Schedule

I am allowed to do organ.  It seems like a special thing, off campus.

I wanted to go to like her classes at the other cc that semester before but am not so sure now maybe because the van is not so easy and the bus ride will be maybe an hour longer with maybe 2 changes.  So, for whatever reason, I think I won't.  I guess if I'm still around next year, I'll go there and take the Speech and Voice and Articulation I|II class.  I mean, it won't be as juvenile.  It just isn't a nice change.  It would just give me something to do.  I don't really know what she does each semester there.  I anticipate she will do something new again, but maybe she is too old.  She doesn't seem satisfied.  I don't know if she is popular, but the kids in her classes suck at this big community college.  You know, she used to teach at UCF and the big private school, well high ranked and small..

So, then, probably, my dad would be driving me to do stuff.  I think the adult gymnastics are on Tuesdays, and her classes are Tuesdays and Thursdays.  I was thinking of working out in more than 1 class but can do Mondays and Wednesdays in the mornings, if they still do it, Body Pump, 5:30-6:25 A.M.  I could go and come home and sleep.  I don't have to do this, just kinda upset about like coming home and sleeping at midnight and I guess paying for a van at 4 A.M., waking up with 3 hours of sleep, coming home after and sleeping.. sounds kinda fun but you know maybe not the best idea.  If I weren't taking her classes, I might be in ballet at CFB.  I mean, the ideal would be to do something in the mornings, but these classes seem more like night classes and I anticipated that they were adults.  I guess this semester is Acting I.  I just wonder, guess this is the plan for here.  I mean, I wonder...it just seems like an inactive semester.  I don't think I will have time to practice voice, voice lab, and ensemble, also want performance group.  I get the feeling I'm getting too old and need to be on the ball and refine myself for the future, if possible, but it seems that's not my best option.  I really want to do the Body Pump in the mornings in the fall, which is like over ... okay I'm back.  So, I mean, it seems like a rushed schedule.  Maybe, I should find something to do at Valencia, instead.  I mean, that would be fun, if I wasn't doing anything.  Maybe, I can take singing.  I mean, it's a lot to do.  I don't think the classes she's teaching have a lot of homework.  I'd like to do the classes at Seminole so may consider that.  I guess I should ask her to take voice, maybe call her now?

These Dreams

Did you ever suspect that someone was reverie-ing in some weird thoughts about you, like your clothes are too nice?  But not really old-fashioned..

So-- tell me watcha want watcha really really want

So, I want to plan an ideal fall semester, when I take Ginny's Dialects and Stage Movement class.  I'll be ½ her age sometime this semester.  Last semester, I learned to sing and dance in front of the camera and from my birthday, started watching her show around then, started to be more motherly and also started to feel around the same time.

So, I don't want Weight Training again.  They have this class that's maybe nearly 2 hours a day like around 11-1 where you do rather than machines aerobics and they talk about nutrition. 3I ½ hour a week.  It seems more like a holistic or wellness class rather than a fitness class..

Why

Why pick on me for my past, like always like 24/7 around me when you want to like get through with me just bat on me that I should have taken jazz dance?  You think that would have made me happier.  I wasn't even supposed to be on dance team, it seems, in some important ways, but it's not ballet, theater ... art ...

Plus, I even don't feel like wasting my time in shitty ballet classes.

*sigh*

So, I have to go watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," she likes me but believes I am shit..I actually am very against pretending that.  You know, like my whole life, that's 1 of my only points.  }=]

Edit

I edited Ginny's description.

Seriously

Ellen wouldn't be mean to me.

My Race

I only want to be white, so stop saying I want what Rihanna wants, you niggers.  I never did.  I'm just white!  Goddammnit you goddamn niggers.

So

Now, what can I do?  I'm sick and hungry.  I need my supper..

Why

Why are Ellen and Ginny so stupid?

Problem

I was gonna have cake, possibly even go for a jog, also have some hw, have to go over the scripts, now what?

This is probably to do with Ginny, the nigger.

Sick

Now, I need Mucinex for my sore throat.  I have sniffles, as well, though.  :|

Problem

Ginny, you think it's funny, huh?

Mad

My pizza was thin, 2 layers of pepperoni, no extra cheese, no extra sauce, from Pizza Hut, though.  My dad said it was the right order like a nigger.

Eating

Pizza Hut
Ice COld Water 3]

listening to "Skimbleshanks: the Railway Cat" from Cats the musical by ALW®

on my nu playlist

Ate

Liverwurst
Samoa type Cookies
Raspberry Dove Candies 3) from Valentine's, didn't pass out much

Problem

Do you agree Ellen DeGeneres is a really mean person?  That's all she does.  She thinks that reacting to you means she can balance it off.  She has nothing to say.

Also, while I'm at it, she thinks because she's from New Orleans you can't enjoy anything.

Also, no, Ellen is not the same as your X, that's what I'm against.

So, Ellen being really nice is not something I asked for but something I appreciated, but I find that I'm feeling like I'm nothing for no reason.

I will not accept Ginny nor others of course accepting Generation Z kids and not me because that is sneaky and there is no reason, you know?

Funny

Ooh look at that fart bomb, Ellen DeGeneres is only something because her mom is white.  She's so ***y.

Guess what?

I keep getting messed with..  I have no idea why.  Why don't you talk about something that's not so stupid?

What's Ellen DeGeneres's problem?  She says oh yes I did mean to hurt you but I didn't.

Problem

Stop being mean to me all the time you niggers.

Issue

I wish my teacher would realize I don't like how she behaves.  It's like she thinks we're not good enough for her.  She's acting like she's sorta I guess unattainable.  That's fine, but I don't like it.

Problem

Hey stop all the time thinking about how I don't deserve attention.  I'm like 26 now.

I find it weird.

So, I feel I'm being made fun of for saying I was born on the beach, though people are worried about being born inland where it's more solid and even more up north.

I think that people really have cut into my life because of Tim Burton and made it unable to be a success story.

Ate

Cream Cheese & Chives Crackers

Just my mom is here, I think.

Cute Ad

It showed a guy as a police with like a tube like a horn pointing it at you ... funny police want in on the action, knew that, rather than working on like things psychologists do..

How I'm Feeling

I look a lot leaner, not as much too me, but I seem to have some elasticity to me in the form of muscular strength in my belly.

Just Woke Up

Guess I slept for 13½ hours.  I woke up once to go to the bathroom and soon after was in bed I think.  I remember my dream buying pizza and walking out and walking back in and paying.  Then I went to 2 places that sold candy and relatively good sweets, reminds me of the bake sales at the cc.  I went in with my mom and brother.  At 1 place before I was with them I accidentally found I opened a long stick of marshmallow covered in chocolate.  I got the good thin piece of cake that was left.  I saw, too, like a $5 monstrous chocolate cupcake with lots of chocolate frosting and flowers, but it was gone and I climbed up to look for it with my brother onlooking, like the blocks in theater class where I had a hard time making it through against the wall, a tiny space with a drop.

Tired

Guess I will lie down, maybe sleep or turn off my computer.  :|  Don't want to but guess I will, might find something else to do, might be time for bed.

Ate

Canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni and Cheese

People

Some people are so set to be a certain way and can't connect to others.

Didn't Listen

My idea for my brother has always been for him to have like honey hair that poofs up and glistens a little and it was light brown but not honey.  It was so limp.  My mom didn't have him do sports as early as me, and it messed him up.  Plus, he just did tennis ... and then my mom didn't have him practice.  I mean, I wouldn't have to practice with him.  He can go practice alone while I do homework.  My mom didn't let me do something else, and I also liked tennis.  He should have done other things, too.

Problem

You can't tell me how to deal with other people.  They can figure out what they want for themselves and not just decide I'm not some exception and that bad kids only get to feel comforted.

What was he supposed to do?

What is my brother supposed to do?  Not approach my dad?  Why is he so much like him?  My dad used to just maybe stimulate him as a boy, but I have no idea what it was.  I know that people born a long time ago are more European.  I think it centers on Late Boom and Generation XY..

What Do I Intend to Find in Time

You'll find that different people deserve different things, as time goes on.

Update

More Info. in the Text Boxx..

I'm me!

Why did I change when my brother was born?

Problem

Don't just blame my dad because he's been looking better in some ways.

Ate

Liverwurst

Checks and Balances

Why do I have a plastered look like my brother?  I know I wanted the sculpted face.

Me Hun Gry

Wow, I look old in that video.  I am having a hard time making it to bed, you know, don't feel like it, didn't go anywhere because I felt so mellow, probably because I didn't take a shower?

New Videos of Me

Calling Ginny! ♥♥

YouTube

Still Tired

I don't know why, maybe from the disability van.  The bus is kinda exciting.  I wish I could go to the mall but feel tired.  I don't even feel like watching TV.  I don't know if I should eat, might have some Lemon Ice.  I don't really feel like getting up and singing.  Ginny lets us call her, but I like posting online in public, too late now possibly, but maybe I should try,.,.