People Want to "Shut Me Up"

They just want me to not talk to anyone.

L.ong sleeves.

What do you think of flashy "Ell en DeGeneres" showing off in her L.ong sleeves?

Trust My Mom With You Personally?

Would you say my mom shouldn't do to someone from Pennsylvania "what" she does to me?

Y.

Why do people only desire to be attractive to prove they are better than me .. to adults??

Taking Things Apart

Why are some people who feel bad telling me I'm not that good, too, and people look at me threateningly but so open to others?

So

Why can't you hold a thought, like let's just decide it was the wrong thing to do and not really care why she did it and don't expect me to talk to you.

Also, this better not excite you in any way.. but why do you think my mom looks like a girl?

Hey..

So, why is my post on Renée Fleming's wall gone?  ,:[  Why doesn't anyone take me seriously?  I know what they look for in singing.  She just knows I also know how to play the piano.  I put it up there just for people to comment on, didn't want anyone to report it, was just a link to my blog..  ,:[  Also, she seems worried about how she parents her own daughters.  ,:[  1 of them is in college, though..  :|

I would wear this. :|

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What I Like + What I Don't Like 3)

I like clothing sets, you know top and bottom.  :|

Nice People With Dark Features

Ever see someone with lighter hair claim they see into life more than someone being really nice at the time with dark hair?

Do not seem to say

You did not just say everything was NYC ... what else?  Chicago?  ?x  I lived in the New Orleans area, and I was there the whole time waiting to feel a little publicity.  Oh, yes, then people "know" Miami.. not as well as me.. I probably know it better than anyone else from the area.  :|  So, what's that to ya?

Imperfect

You know, you all mess up, too..

Tacky People in Orlando

What would you say if you weren't white in Orlando?  :|

No Handle on Youngsters

Helena Bonham Carter shouldn't be able to think she has a handle on us because she's older.  :|

Honking In

What do you think of my dad like honking in when my mom does something personal with me, like since I'm a really good girl, like he goes all schizo, that it isn't so, in feeling?

Leave me alone!

Stop trying to make me feel bad or I might m***** you.

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Here's the link, if you want to buy it.  :D

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:0 on sale for $28.99

Mad

So, my mom just came in here, and she said she's giving me money each week..  So, she might mess up and like not really give me enough.  So, I have to sit there for a few minutes, think what to ask her, and then write a note..  Each week..  Then, she left the room like she -was- something.

Should I get this?

Dress

Time to Go Shopping~Online! =P

Children's Dresses, Matching Colored Socks and Stockings and Dress Shoes|Booties

no time to sew now :|

Breakfast

Liverwurst
Leftover Pizza from a Frozen Pack of 4, Pepperoni, want the healthy kind, have to ask my dad, again, for the kind in the orange box

Gotta go to the bathroom and what change my clothes?  My brother isn't here.  Wonder if I'll clean tonight.

Y Get Mad

Why would you get mad at me for like something your student did?  I wonder if that college had nothing to offer.  Wow, what's the point in singing.  I added videos of a girl I like who sings.  Maria Kate.

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To: Renée Fleming

Nice to see all the posts here. I have been a fan of her I guess for a long time. My dad introduced me to her when I was a music major and got in voice. I had to leave after about a year. Well, I can sing. Anyway, I like to sing and move, at the same time.. }:] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAhVu9ImBWw&feature=share&list=PLaGbICdZ92sbD8UoEPjU9UcznBDNT6rYE Ms Fleming should get a personal site where she controls like a place for people to submit their singing if they so chose and she can chose to comment. }:] I think I had a more, you know, "melodious" voice.. when I was a bit younger. :| Why do people just want you to like submit the strenght of your voice?? :/ I just never got around to recording it so much. When I sang more softly and sweetly and very controlled compared to most everyone.., I remember recording it, but Heaven knows where the recordings went.. We lost all the recordings of me when I was younger and most of the good pictures I had.. The benefit of singing loudly as a child when I was with my little brother more I guess, probably gave me the strengt to carry on. I was a very symmetrical type person, wanted a figure but was not treated as a European. You know dancers don't have good voices. The thing is I did gymnastics and not so much dance 1st when I was younger only once or twice a week. I wanted to go every day but sing, too.  I wish I took voice from the Russian teacher who taught me piano, but I was too shy and then didn't have time to practice piano. I was good at piano, and it stimulated me more about music. You can hear it in the orchestra, even, and it really taught me about counterpoint and harmony|chords, more exercises in rhythm. Going to school to learn to be a holistic person in Gifted and some AP classes, I would fit in exercises of staccato... I know my music teacher's daughter did gymnastics. Her voice sounded like speaking or shouting as she got older, like she was too shy to sound sweet, like she had no imagination, maybe because she kept going to her mom for all the attention.. I was just sitting there a long time. So, yes, about kids who sing. My mom is very artistic, but as for singing I mean she has a pretty European accent? She majored in ESL, which is English as a Second Language. Er, my dad was a rhythm guitarist, so. :| He also enjoyed being a loved photographer of models when they had more professional, nice things available. I'm sure he was top notch, had 2 other jobs, made it through college, though, and now makes a lot of money.. His parents both loved to sing, but he just sang with his guitar alone sometimes, never cared to sing loudly like his parents. My parents only talk loudly when they're mad or if they think that something is funny.. So, I don't know why you don't listen to me if I'm interested in the same things you are and instead like saddle onto being interested in my parents, like I came with no kid. Oh, and my mom's mom wanted her to be a singer, but her sister sang just a little as a toddler-kid... and then she is a piano teacher now and so knows all about music, yes.. No, I don't mean she is a singer! I just touched base.. 8| So, anyway, I seem to have a lot of more attractive singing skills, like I'm a singing cartoon because I was hurt. I was able to catch on but didn't record much. My life became an experiment and I lost my singing skills but got more sleep but kinda burned out, I guess, wish I was somehow convinced I could take a break from college- :| So, don't come to like keep at me moralistically on my appreciation of the joy of singing, maybe enjoy me for who I am and not for like wanting something I didn't admit. Not many singers like me, not many would be like as good as me and more confident, like most of the boys are?? You just kinda watch, think maybe there's no hope, and that there's just a lot to improve, so just leave and have nothing to add but then realize I'm more talented than most people. You want to know my story, again?? Gymnastics gave me a good stomach as a kid, and then I quit... I was a very disciplined person but not withheld. I was a tomboy after my brother was born.. I used to talk a lot, so that would be a good thing. My parents often preached and croaked until a certain point in time that you are not supposed to dribble to babies, in fact most people did that lazily. My brother, however, studdered, and I think it ruined me.. I think I was told that I had nothing to say too much. It's like they expected us to take singing. So, then I told my mom I want to sing somehow.. I was 7. I told my parents, "I like to sing," when I was 5 and sang a cute school song for them. My dad was like, okay. He kinda looked at me mockingly, no one else does that like that, like when they chose to get close. So, my mom got me in choir. I do not know why she did not tell me about private voice. I think it was a secret, yes, in the world. I just don't want you to think anything bad because lots of kids's moms won't do that, maybe because like they do ballet or maybe they don't have the means. I wouldn't do that.. I still am not sure why. Maybe, I had problems. My parents used to want me to do ballet, but I finally did it. I just didn't want to be fat and sunken in. It definitely made me who I am today. I know my skin got whiter, but I don't know why. So, what's wrong with gymnastics if you do other physical things? I didn't actually do it when I was older.. and my voice got pretty and feminine because of it, maybe had enough. I know I did well in P.E. I mean, I was fit since I was toddler, like my whole life. I wasn't malnutritioned and didn't pig out on like candy and stuff. Maybe, I need to get in shape? I'm a human, though, and I like to eat tasty food, but I don't pig out on junk and soda, at all. I don't eat Italian shit. So, after being so perfectly fit from the gymnastics and being successful in what ballet I did, we listened to Enya and stuff and my parents got me classical music. I was known to be gifted playing by ear on the piano, starting at 9½, like lots of people who do well at like 12 are thought to be good, for example, and I was a good student, so, no one dare disapprove of me in the end, morally. :| "It's never to late to play the piano," everyone "said." So, I had fun with like Enya and stuff, like that, church music, didn't really play Enya, but I seemed to be like that. Luckily we had another Irish CD like that kinda, more folksy, and of course some other influences, of course.. I just won't accept people not accepting me. I am not a bad, dumb person. So, we moved, and then I started getting into musicals and was in a more casual choir, but it was righteous and sorta old.. I had some other experiences, I guess, and I got in college and then I had a year of voice where really they didn't seem to have any sorta talent to offer, you know? Singers can get fat, though, and lose their talent for not using it. Singers who like get in shape as singers, you might say, don't have powerful voices.  I count all my experience in music, theater with musical theater. I also had a great interest in pop music around the time of the Titanic. Why not help me? Is it just too late? No one really seems to appreciate me academically, the failures that exist today. I guess they don't stop and think about what's probably wrong with their own singing. I mean, you can't say you're better or everyone keep saying they're not good enough to make me feel good in any sorta meaningful way. They think that the education system was just like sorta bait or katnip you might call it. You know, I studied in Washington, a graduate course, my 1st summer of college. It's definitely a hidden desire once you dispose of dealing with me. :|

iKid

I look good for an iKid for my stereotype.

Going to Bed

Maybe, was watching Renée Fleming..  :|

Unhappy

You won't even help yourself to the bottle.

Unfair in Comparison

Why was I made fun of for keep going?  I know my dad "was unfair to my mom."

Ever think that people from other places don't really accept Elle DeGeneres?

I mean, I probably should have been more healthier to take voice.  Would have been nice.  Should find a European teacher.  Also want to take some sort of class from Ginny.  Probably not diction.  I feel as though I'd want to teach her to sing.  She could just have fun with me and like see if she knows squat.  I mean, she works with speakers and also with singers to speak, so that is very important.  I don't also just hang out with singers, I hang out with people to hang out.

Admit It

So, Ellen DeGeneres admits to Tim Burton, no, I don't do what I say.  I act like I don't care, but I do.  I just don't really know the answer.  You know, though, says Christina, I think I do.

The Hunt

So, people think Germans answer all your needs.  3)

Adding Things

to YouTube.  8|  Under Music, Celebrities, and Comments.

Disinterest

White people are not interested in the glamor of good things, the unattractive 1s.

Y R U

Why are you getting rid of attractive dads born in 1950?

*crap*

Why are people playing around, changing racial rules on crap?

Found out Stuff

So, I found out already that people born after 1959 make up precious riddles that don't exist for them - har har har.

I also found out they want to show my mom she's a nigger.

Threats

I keep getting annoying messages and threats.

I found that we're all supposed to be like people born in 1986.  What's so good about that year?

Quit Playing Games from the Start

Attractive

If you want me to change, why not in a good way, like Late Boom or Generation Z?

Um

Why should I care what you think when others aren't there for me?  I didn't do anything wrong.  Why are you picking at misfortunes in my past, like I "didn't have to do something?"  At least, I am more attractive.

Singer

I added a singer from Oklahoma-

She is a junior in 2007 in high school maybe.  It's so neat to see such a young voice and to know voices always blossom and boom after your 1st year of college voice.  :)

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Also, do you think that Germans are better in Florida?  I don't think that is always the case.  I mean, I guess some of the mixed Germans are messed up.  :(

Y

Why do people like my parents and like want something from them and maybe even want to help them?

Y

Why do bad people make a fuss when they see another attractive person?  I mean, before my brother was born, though, I remember my head was shaped a bit funnily but better than his.  Why would I be my brother?  I mean, why isn't anyone else jealous?

Y

Why do you think I have perverted dreams?

So

What's with all the hate with 1950?  I'm sorry you don't feel special.

So

What do I do that I need to improve?  There's nothing to copy.

So

People from Pennsylvania ... haha you don't trust anyone because I'm not white.

So, what would they act like in New Orleans  +]

Would you rather?

Be a chicken
Would you rather be a duch

I don't want to be treated like I'm gay because I'm European.

Why all the negativity?

Like, you want to get on topic?  Maybe, there is no topic attached.  :|

The Attractive 1

If you notice with the parent that is thinner, like people get annoyed at the kid but say they're whiter than you.

Baby at the Mall

It looked really melted with dark skin.  Why don't people like care about their babies being white.  The mom was attractive, obese, tall, small head.  The baby looked Spanish.. a boy.  There was nothing really to worry about because the worry was that the baby thought the mom's attractive availability was for some odd reason some puzzle it was working on, and that puzzle didn't involve my likings.  So, an older person would beat you down that there's some problem, and the problem is the fact there is a problem, they don't need to stretch you as responsible for a fact that the fact is what the fact is, does not "mean" anything.  Get it?  It just is struggling, it's not some thing you did!  :0

Got Mad

I realized people didn't get mad at white people enjoying things and feeling the benefits of being European but then find they aren't really that good.  You know, figure it out before you spray it..  I saw more girls with white hair at the mall..  }:]

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Daily Motion :D

listed on my YouTube.  8I

I Wonder Wonder Wonder

I wonder if anyone ever thought that I should be like dug into ... really said I want to show her a lesson that she's like no child starlet.

Wrrong

YouTube is taking down 3rd party content.  The only thing that is illegal is posting videos online.  Who watches movies on their computer!

And

Other people quitting, the people themselves who quit who think it's funny maybe it's MY fault everyone in the world hasn't continued singing since young.  There was this singer from this tan Russian lady who started a year later than I did.  Her voice is kinda warbly, like saliva.  It became more projecting.  She wasn't supposed to have a loud voice, like Céline Dion never talking, who can't speak French.  So, what am I supposed to say?  This girl quit voice and just stayed as a theater major.  I mean, it's not entertaining.  She thinks that being attractive is a sin.  That means I can sing from choir.  +|  I mean, what are you looking for?  I found out about voice lessons after I moved from a year in choir, -from- choir.  The choir was good, so I stayed and just sorta explored myself and became very European, as well.  I moved andd was like I wanna teacher who teaches both voice and piano, but I didn't feel like singing in front of her.  I mean, she was good but not because she was Russian?  I mean, I'm a pianist, but she was a serious pianist.  She'd come back from community college, all sorta happy and European and was all strict with me..  It wasn't fun, she wanted it hard..  I didn't..  I remembered her sliding the notes, though, years later.  It's funny the travling organists in the choir at church, which who knows, I mean it was the school church.., might have been better than the hired 1s, the 1st who was fired..  Everyone there loved me, thought I took on, had the angelic type of voice and then I guess digressed after a solo experience and went to college and took lessons and didn't learn much.  :|  My teacher was from Tallahassee.  :|  So, why should I take lessons from someone who is racist who I don't like???  Then, we had another good choir director, who seemed to have a lot of knowledge of good singing but herself was no vocalist.  Her voice was very soft but projected more easily than mine from being a teacher..

Heil, Hitler!

The fact I never took voice ... I moved to another place.  Well, anyway.  I was learning music via piano, was lucky to learn music notes in music class before moving to a really good choir.. just there wasn't any individual singing involved.  So, then, I went to high school and found I had to audition for Talented Music but was in Art I, instead.  So, then, I was 15 and wanted to take voice and was already in ballet once a week.  Then, I got singing lessons from a really large lady in Talented Music until a Korean girl came back, but I mean it was an interesting experience.  So, then, I went to the mental hospital and became bloated there in a week, was 16 my 3rd year of high school..  It was because I had my 1st lecture heavy reading course, should have ignored school and paid attention to gifted arts?  The rest of the classes were always okay, but Calculus was a challenge, as I went to 3 high schools.  So, then, I spent most of my time it seemed accompanying on instruments and in choir, was in a new band at a Catholic school..even said dance team girls should have been on it, this 1 attractive 1 who went to England before.  She would announce every morning.

So, what is it?  I know already at least about Renée Fleming, whose parents had her right after graduating as singing majors.  She did opera in the cradle, while people came in and took lessons, maybe because their house wasn't been enough and there was no nanny while she got lessons.  Maybe, they had to feed her or something.  I mean, what, maybe it's "not true?"  I mean, I don't know if she had to sing as much as other people, but she sang "Climb Every Mountain" as a kid, maybe around age 10 or 11.  Or maybe like 8th grade.

Then, there's also Órla Karron Fallon.  She has been singing as long as she can remember and went through college taking harp lessons and is a Religion major.

Jackie Evancho, who is from Pittsburgh, like Ginny's dad, obviously had a vibrating voice at 7, appears to have taken lessons, maybe not as gifted as I was, not sure why, I mean I've heard gifted kids and stunning kids and seen kids who are more physical and could probably become good artists.

SO, WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?  I CAN SING.  I'M NOT A DORK.  I'M ATTRACTIVE.  I'M NOT AN OLD, GERMANY FOGY, AND I AM GERMAN.

Oops! I forgot I was racist.

What do you think of Ellen being afraid to be attractive, like doing something attractive, like letting people she clings to be attractive?  Get it on Ellen, oops I forgot I was racist.

Something Interesting to Note

So, people think that their happiness is based on my success.  Like, you could just say, it's only about child stars today.  Like the 1s in commercials, probably all with white hair???  White curly hair?  I saw the most attractive 1, today.  [|:]

Tai Chi

"The mist rises."


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"Cir cle the moon, with trreee rings.  1 ....

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Make sure to check out the girl in the Sears commercial.. link.

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I can't see how to see the whole thing.

New Video

I added a music video from my old piano teacher in the nation's oldest continuing city, Saint Augustine, Florida, under a major city in Northeastern Florida, from a Share on Facebook:

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Photo

I added a photo to my set.  :D

Edit

I added a tag to show the pink pictures are from yesterday.

New Photos

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Poofed Out

I'm poofed out?..

I just cleaned the bathroom for my brother.  Put in new toilet drops, haven't had them in awhile.

Hi Ginny

Well, I hope she has a long break off, like a year.  :|

In the summer, I just wanna go to Disney, guess it'll cost money, was otherwise wondering if I could stand on a boat in the water in the Midwest.

Also, I think kids here should go on break over the break, bring their homework.  They should go somewhere else, Europe, a nonwhite nation, or the Midwest, or maybe somewhere else.  I wonder if there are special camps in L.A...

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That Don't Impress-a Me Much. 3I

So, why are these younger kids trying to impress me with their style because I like to have ***?

Se - par - AAA - TION!

If in the end no matter what you do you hate someone for having a dad born from 1940-1956, why not just separate yourself from them?

Going fo' the Goa'l X|

Why can Late Boom be cool?  So, I like went with the right program people wanted, to take the heat and reach you goal.

So, they could agree with me and then go along with theoretically the rest of the dumb, older?, or messed up for some reason people in the world.

C

I don't believe in the new move of saying I'm as good as my parents.  We grew up listening to our parents, and they may have messed up with you, but parents still like me even in their kids get like snotty all the time to me when they don't have to put up with me for too long.  I guess people just kinda get annoyed at me like trying to be how others were before, and they say my new ways are niggerish.  You know, black person in zebra clothes.

Y 0 Y

Why would you go along and rush kids in year like 2000 something early 2000s to all act so modern in that sorta juicy, sparkly, spiky way.. not in a cool way.  And like sorta knock all the older Generation Y kids out to never be that way?  Or should I say younger Generation X?  I am not sure, I think it's like a graduation, a collection of maybe people born before 1992.  So, then, you sit there are wonder how to change something.  Well, like, the problem would be for me I'm not all white and I have traits that are like not really European so I'm not like as straight.  I don't see why me having an older dad is so bad, I mean I can't hang out with other people with dads my age?

Ghosts in the Corridor..

I was in the hall, went to the bathroom sometimes every 20 minutes or 15 minutes.  I heard these haunting noises like human ghosts howling, so I was like I hope that's not where the sound of ghosts came and writing this just realized more tactually that that's "how" it actually happened, lazy people..  x(

How I'm Feeling

I'm actually feeling quite low.  I didn't jog yesterday..  Also, I didn't get enough sleep the night before.  I guess tonight I slept ...  dunno really maybe 10-11 hours.  Kinda stimulating myself the whole time.  Now, I'm just kinda hungry and tired..  xp  Wanna go shopping.

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More text box info..on the black crystals in my eyes..

So

I woke up and ate ... liverwurst and a bloody hamburger on thin rye bun with Heinz ketchup.  Water.  My vitamins forgot the weight loss draining pill.

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Not Happy

Hey stop looking at me like I have to be in the style of my dad's generation, you messed up dweebs.. and stop telling me I'm a dork!

So, he came home early.. Spring Break.

Wasn't really happy to see his sour attitude, and he acts like my mom is younger, like his younger sister, I should s*** him.

Staaa'rs

I starred the good videos to watch.

"Sta(a)(r)rs .. .. in their multitud.es ... scarce to be coun-teD"

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Dreams

I had a dream I killed Ginny Kopf.  In the end, I heard a few low drums of no consequence really, just th..anyway and then she exploded into lots of little glittery dust, as though she committed suicide.  '=s  The funny thing is I don't remember what I was doing 1st, but I know I was flying around a big place with lots of sorta plant-like buildings, kinda bleak.  I felt there was some big spirit flying me around, though, so I guess I was not the 1 flying?  I liked feeling that I was being held on my crotch, but I got some ideas I tried to process.  I realized that you can find anyone online at school in their city.  I decided, though, that I wanted to do something about safety but always realize that death is just around the corner.  Other interesting things, I felt like my feet were like pushing pedals like of that famous organ song.  I also felt my body nearer to the end before that as the result of being like a jelly worm, you know gel..  Those gummies.  ;D  From doing ballet, like it wasn't a good idea but hwen you do it it is.  I wish I remembered my other dreams, but I was more conscious with this 1, like before.  I think when I fell asleep this time, I felt dead from something, like the medicine as the end.  It's like because I wasn't famous with a lot of money from wishing to be an actor while I was on MySpace.  So, anyway, I was flying around a long time, felt touched, felt strong, the stronger overall feeling or whatever was the situation.  Oh well, wish I could remember more.  It was sorrowful and somber.  It was like it was a scary, black, from the past like my past life or dead, like a Ghost of Christmas, sorta going with me on a journey I was taking or happened to take because of her.  I still feel a big force around my crotch, and it feels like huge, puffy, not too old arms.  I woke up, and my blessed fingers were like big puffs.  I guess I did it to myself, as usual.  It's always interesting, but it won't last.  I used to feel I wish it would last.  :|

So, if you want to know what I did in bed, I could feel in Cleveland, my blankets feeling celestial like they put kinda a lot of sorta involuntary|voluntary, you know random.., pressure on me, like a spirit, that it was a person.  My bed also pulsed in a very surreal way.  I used to imagine the life in my eyes suddenly like crossing mainly.. and myself fucking the tubes!  D;  I tried it as much I could, like I would not stot, like I had to do it, like there was no point in thinking of other things in bed, myself.  I can't seem to do that, now, here.  I just was distracted, in the end..  I used to go around to RDV and sit around, a magical place, while my mom was busy.  I'd watch the people and feel I was in a magical world, really, but for some reason it had to dye away.

So

Is the theater class for the teacher to have fun?

..Wut?

So, you do listen to the sarcastic bullshit of trashy young tweens.

Sorry for People in High Places

Why should I feel sorry for people in high places?

Stimulated Myself..

I stimulated my ovary by pressing against the bed. ):)

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wut

So, Ellen, why did you fart that my Mom deserves more Southern heritage? Aren't you worth anything? You are famous - O MY GOD-

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Wut

Why does Ginny think she is right to get shit out that I am shit? I have worked long and hard.

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Problem

So, why is it a sacrifice to talk to me?

I kicked the chairs of boys in class..  I've hurt people..

I just got a sarcastic message from my mom that I'm from Pennsylvania in a weird way.  Look, I don't have a problem learning in my life.  Stop telling me I can't be sarcastic.  You're uncool, stupid, a turd.  :(  Get over it, your stupid language barrier, you nigger.  Go to hell.

Can you GODDAMN stop telling me every feeling is true?  Just flip your lid.  Look I said stop.  What is this shit?  Why am I getting these messages?  Everyone does it.  I feel certain feelings, and I try not to get upset but find that no one really is impressed with me..

Isn't it really funny

how people in California and the New Orleans area aren't very suave?

,:[

So, you see kids in the 1980s were treated like shit, you see the little kids with the button noses in Ginny's picture.  Light hair.  They look like stupid dolls.  Kids today are too much in fast forward, based on knocking out the future of kids before.

Picture

Ginny is the skinny brunette on the left.  Hmph, her hair is gold brown..  I need to start using Radiant Red, again??  Her hair seems lighter, now..  No, wait, I'm using the Sheer Blonde for dyed blondes and there's red in the bottle, so..  Er..  Now, what?  I'm using Frizz Ease.  :|

Disturbed

I feel Ginny is ticked off and I can't sleep because of eating cold cuts, like it's allergic in Pennsylvania.  She's not even cool in Pennsylvania so she needs to not do that..  :|

So

Why are you telling me I have to hold off being from Pennsylvania in the way I have Pennsylvania blood when I am not at all from there, my dad is.  What the fuck is your goddamn problem!  You gotta issue?  Look, got anything to say??  :|

Wrrrong!

You call people niggers who just flip you off as wrong racially.

OK, OK

So, Ellen is a maniac about going to your grandparents for heritage, what a bitch.  :/

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Charlotte Church may have like dark eyebrows but is not really serious like someone born in the 1950s and early 1960s.  Etc.

Um

Why do you think I am acquired in Florida but not the New Orleans area??  Because I'm not from the city??  Wow, it was already too late when we got there.  Yea, I complained a lot, but they didn't build the health club that we were moving by, neither.  I didn't want to do a sport.  I didn't want to do yoga, wasn't particularly prepared for a 16-year-old's workout.  I wanted to do softball, but there was no softball anywhere...  I wanted to do more ballet, but I found this nice little studio, should have looked somewhere else.  It just seemed really interesting, so I mean I just stayed since I already went there.  I mean, why would a modern dance studio have company and ballet new just once a week?  I mean, they could offer it.  Why would I even bother caring about them?  No, I don't want to look too gaunt but kinda was going after that look.  I guess I finally broke through that idea and thought of something.  I mean, why would I be a puffy ballerina?  What can I go for?  I think doing cross country ... hm ... I met this boy from New Orleans who left and changed over the summer, cut my hair from being longer-looking.  I mean, I gotten fatter not being able to do ballet and feel I would have been puffed up, possibly.  I mean, who knows, maybe I would quit.  Lots of girls do so they can live a normal life.  I wanted to walk around, but I could only do it with a friend over, and hardly anyone would talk to me.  They, even the nicest girl, would just look at me like shit with a shit face.  Please don't think I mean anything, I just mean that in a not mean way.  I don't know why all Louisianians are so gay..  Look, I'm mad again.  I just liked high school, but that's when it was all about the boy from New Orleans.  I attended this private school which was gay but kinda interesting.  Maybe better than the Mandeville styled school.  They wasted class time, but I could get in classes early.  I always thought I spent too much time on homework, but there was an omen about the public junior high, not sure if people there succeeded.  Hm, not even sure who the dance team members were..  At least, they were kinda ***y and not just like trashy and cliquish and schizophrenic, you know, schizophrenic!!

What do you think??

What do you think about in the deep, deep lows to find that some obscure place like Louisiana or New Orleans exists and that no one cares about what you think about that stuff in life??

Ow

My head hurts from being mad and m***********.  I am glad for Spring Break but not really but it will give me a chance to catch up on sleep and have a better rest of the semester.  I have a workbook assignment, 3 things or small things, in Weight Training I.  In Theater, we'll read a children's book, the voice class, but we can't start early.  I asked, after class..  I mean, I tried to sleep, but I ate and then watched some videos and packed, was gonna wake up at 3, know sometimes I don't sleep.  I mean, I'll be fine, but I'll be agitated trying to sleep at school, like before..  I have to do a character analysis and print out my journals.  I have to block something, too.  I guess I'll do it after weight training, but I really really want to jog but you know probably won't.  I'll get out of Weight Training at 10:15.  I have to eat lunch by noon and then my shower, which takes me until class starts.  So, I'll have 10:15-noon to do all my homework and purchase my book maybe before class I guess.  The bookstore opens at 8, so I'll go buy my book and jog and then do weight training.  Then, I guess I can do the character analysis in the library.  I did it on another paper but didn't copy it, so it'll be fun to do again.  If I finish early, I mean, I guess I won't.  :(  I'll have to jog over the holidays..  I might do the character analysis at school at like let's see 7?  Yea?  But might be sleeping?  We'll see.  So, I'm ready, ponytail, contact lenses, ready to pack the case, cell phone, bar of soap..cell phone case.  :|  Everything seems packed.  Lost my lunchbox but have my lunch packed.  I guess no one will play tennis, but I'll be out there to see.  Money packed...  :/  Guess I'll look for stuff for St. Patrick's day.  I mean I had so much ************ in my sleep in a way..so much stress, too, and like I just don't feel right not sure why I'm up.  Maybe, I should separate myself from the rest of the class.  :(  I mean, I was in the very back!  There was no room.  The whole class was like feeling for me I guess by the way the teacher talked, though I don't know if she really saw me!  :|

dun dun dun dun

dun wanna go ta bed